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This is the greatest.
http://yoganonymous.com/watch-ultra-spiritual/

Good news: Apparently, most of this small weight gain is actual muscle. Who knew.
Annoying news: Everything hurts in such a very specific way everywhere that most forms of exercise make it all worse. The only things that seem to make it better are isometrics and mild qi gong and a few basic Pilates-style moves... sooo, physical therapy with a spiritual bent?

Also, I still have a stress reaction to even the idea of "doing yoga for pain". None of my doctors are surprised. Plus, the physical therapist suggested some lovely snarky replies to "Have you tried yoga for your pain?" - my favorite is still "Well, yoga tastes like artificial banana, and I hate artificial banana flavor, so I don't want any yoga, thanks." Second favorite is "Nah, I'm still trying that floating Jedi thing in the swamps. I'd rather take the Dark Side with the cookies."
Seriously. Don't yoga push me. I did try it, it was painful, I found other things.

Now I feel like mimicking that scene where Bart draws a picture of Flanders and chases Homer around with it yelling "Howdily doodily! Howdily doodily? HOWDILY DOODILY?" Luckily, I haven't been pushed in a while, and the last few times, I remained calm and cool, because I am still fucking awesome.

Addendum:
Also, it's really interesting: I am totally fine with basic yoga, with flow yoga, with restorative yoga. But it is the way people talk about it as though it helps everyone heal everything? That is what I gripe so much about. Maybe some poses will help ease cerebral palsy issues, fibromyalgia issues, joint issues. Maybe. For some disabled folks. But if I say something like "No, thank you, I've tried that, it was too painful, it made things worse, and I have found other exercises that help me," I expect people to, if not back off, then at least acknowledge my reasons. The actual fact that many pushers have brushed off my reasons and kept pushing is what makes me want to slap them with their yoga mats. So when I talk about an exercise by calling it a name that is also the name of a yoga pose, please please do not assume I have taken up yoga. It's just that "Warrior Pose" is far simpler than having to describe the whole thing.
Comments:
Anna Sirén: Yoga? Us? Really? ...?
Joanna Capello Paul: LOL, it is to laugh. But by gods, people love to try.
Anna Sirén: Jesus, I can't imagine you with your ankles behind your ears, and that's not an insult.
Joanna Capello Paul: OMG ow. Ow ow ow OW.
Joanna Capello Paul: I'm just glad other CP folks get it. I don't know what's so particularly special about yoga, but it's become so elitist in many ways. And if I say I'm "doing Child's Pose" or something, I feel like I need to add "not actual yoga because that is painful" because just because it's a stretching exercise doesn't mean it's a yoga pose.
Cara Liebowitz: When a teacher who knows how to handle Ceeps is doing it, yoga can be nice. *coughcough* Kara T. Billingham. Yoga at crip camp was great fun, if painful.
Joanna Capello Paul: My mom teaches a certain type of yoga to seniors in Southampton sometimes, and the moves are so simple they're barely even yoga. What bothers me really is this culture of yoga-ier than thou elitism, and gods forbid I perform a "yoga style type pose" that is not yoga.
Cara Liebowitz: I wonder if Kara and your mom know each other. Next time you're in the Hamptons, stop by The Yoga House, LLC and ask for Kara, tell her you know me. One of my favorite things about Kara's yoga was that she encouraged us to laugh if we wanted to.
Joanna Capello Paul: Hmm. I'll ask my mom! Have you spoken with Kara lately?
Joanna Capello Paul: *looking at website* Well, it's good that she teaches Kripalu. My parents' basement tenant, who is a massage therapist, is a certified Kripalu teacher.
Cara Liebowitz: We speak every so often here on Facebook, last I saw her was over the summer. She is wonderful, wonderful, wonderful and so is her husband. Two very influential people in my life.
Joanna Capello Paul: I haven't been through Hampton Bays in a long time, but I do recognize that sign and building. I have a feeling that Kara and my mom have run in similar circles.
Melissa Boyer O'Doyle: I'd rather take the Dark Side with the cookies.
Heather Stover: I do vinyasa flow yoga and restorative yoga. It helps. With some things. It is not some magic cure for everything. If you're not into it people should leave you alone, your yogi wouldn't want you there with any less then a willing mind and heart.
Heather Stover: Gentle yoga classes are the bomb. I hate elitist yoga snobs.
Mad Miriam: You know you might just get people to back down more quickly by simply sating that you have a very satisfying home practice, thank you very much.
Joanna Capello Paul: ...except that when they keep nudging and insisting, I tend to feel backed into a corner, and I start snarling. I'm a very peaceful person. But I am also shy and isolated. I really don't like being pushed.
Mad Miriam: If your agreeing why are they still nudging and insisting?
Joanna Capello Paul: I really wish I knew. People are very odd.
Mad Miriam: I'll say. I'm sorry, I for one do not push cause well I know you have met the practice where you are at and since yoga means union isn't that the fucking point anyhow?
Joanna Capello Paul: Agreed. That's why I am so upset and pissed off when people don't seem to understand the whole damn point. Union is about, y'know, respecting people's choices. The fact that there ARE yoga practitioners who almost bully others into doing their kind of yoga - particularly disabled people - hurts me.
Joanna Capello Paul: For example, in the cerebral palsy support group I am in, there have been stories of non-disabled people pushing CP folks too hard, leading to injuries that were not fully recovered - physical and emotional. And that is just not right at all. And I feel like that is part of the weird elitist attitude that shouldn't even exist with yoga practice.
Mad Miriam: OMG Joanna Capello Paul I could not agree more, as a fairly mild arthritic I get the same shit and I don't get why its so hard for some teachers to understand that just cause I got into a really low lunge last week this week my knees and hips might just be too stiff to go there and that it does not mean I am not dedicated to the practice, it means I am listening to my body, something we should all aspire to do more often.
Joanna Capello Paul: Listening to our bodies! Exactly! I don't think people like that care about listening to the body anymore. You do what YOU must do for YOUR body. And I am so burnt out on teachers who don't listen. It's why I do restorative, flow moves with my mother over the phone.
I mean, I literally cannot be straight. When I try a lunge, or a pose that requires balance, I have to ask someone, usually Adam, if my body lines up. And when he helps get me into a straight aligned line, I start wobbling. It hurts. I am in serious pain. My body, my very bones, were never going to align like that. And so I need modification, compensation, compromise. And the fact that a lot of yoga practitioners have insulted me just for that literally created a stress reaction in my brain. So when I talk about yoga poses, I have to say "modified basic yoga" otherwise I start hyperventilating just from memories.
Mad Miriam: It is a myth that our bodies and bones can align to some artificial standard, we all all have such diffent experiences and phsyologies that make up who we are and it my mind if you are making room for the breath and creating sensation, but not pain you are doing it right. I totally agree through and think it is part of the problem with the comodifying of yoga, I think once upon a time, maybe there was the root of the notion that yogis practiced to access a place beyond pain and body and to reach a space where they could meditate and focus on breath and vein, but with institutions like lululemon and power yoga people see their yoga as about perfecting the body and not reaching past the veneer that is the body. Its fascinating and sick really.
Joanna Capello Paul: I appreciate you saying that, Mad Miriam. It makes me feel better, knowing that there can't be such "perffect alignment". I was always, always told that I'd never reach any ideal pose with cerebral palsy. So I stopped. And I found isometrics and just started doing meditative stretching, which was my version of yoga anyway.
Mad Miriam: Next time someone starts to push hard ask them if they practice Ahimsa, it is the first basic principal of yoga and translates into compassion for all living things, if they say "Of course." then tell them you do as well and intimately understand what is most compassionate for your body. Namaste.
Mad Miriam: I think all the wrong people have been foisting their opinions on you. I took up Kundalini yoga last year and the whole idea of it is that through the practice you are opening up channels on your spine for the kundalini energy to come spouting out of the top of your head, I expressed concern that I had a slight scoliosis in my spine and that according to this notion I was ineligible for kudalini enlightenment, my instructor said "No worries, the energy meanders its way around these things, it's like a stream." Thus I go with that notion.
Joanna Capello Paul: Ahimsa, eh? I shall look into it!
I have fallen in love with kundalini energy. I do what your instructor says, instinctively. I don't necessarily do all the poses and moves but I reach for that energy in my own way. Maybe one day you and I could get together and practice in our own imperfect methods?

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Copying stuff from other social media sites can be interesting...
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Seriously, though. This toothbrush containing edible gold, bought at H-Mart, made in Korea, seems to really do something. I've taken colloidal gold before. It was good to my teeth. The toothbrush, with nothing but herbal powder, actually seems to make my teeth feel clean, smooth, and hell, even detoxified. I don't even know if that can be a thing. I used it dry a few times and got the same sensation. DeoLife toothbrushes. Gold, bamboo charcoal, silver. I get the silver and the charcoal, those are famous for being antibacterial and such. The one with the gold calls itself detoxifying, removing plaque build-up easily. I am skeptical, but there seems to be some interesting evidence. My teeth are certainly whiter.

So, "Orphan Black" is still awesome. "Black Box" is still interesting despite possibly turning into a "magical mentally ill doctor always saves the day" stereotype. I mean, I really need to see more than these first two episodes, and I hate that a mere two episodes in it is already being torn by critics. But I mean, it's like watching my life in an alternate reality. What if I were a neuroscientist, dealing with my own neurodivergence and mental illnesses, able to help my patients precisely because I could connect to them on such a specific level... I need to keep having faith in the show, except for how Catherine doesn't want her fellow doctors to know she is bipolar, even though they probably wouldn't give a shit. Like, the boss was saying that any doctors with medical conditions needed to report them, since that one surgeon with the brain tumor had a seizure during a brain surgery and became suicidal. I realize that my disabilities and invisible illnesses are my private business. But if I were a specialist working in a hospital, in charge of brains, I might understand that my supervisors might want to know about my specific mental illnesses, you know, in case I had an episode. I don't know. I find Dr Black a bit untrustworthy with her addiction to her mania. I realize she has wanted to keep her bipolar private for her own Reasons. But I don't think that is helping anyone, least of all her daughter. I mean, there is a teenager involved, who is already displaying symptoms of her own. Does Catherine really need to stay under that radar if it might cause damage to her kid?
Thoughts, anybody?

Also, this is something I wrote on Facebook and might as well copy here.

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http://chaoslife.findchaos.com/aging-agility
Perhaps I should attempt this "Max Capacity" exercise thing they describe in the comments. So far, kundalini has done nothing for my joints, but I am a smidge looser, so. As I told a friend, I am maintaining a broad sense of humor. Spastic hypertonia plus ataxia equals falling over and bruising myself. Which must be laughed at. Lest I go mad. But, you know, I learned something very important: Now that I have made the very personal decision to do a very specific type of yoga on my own, with no suggestions from anyone, I feel that I can better combat health zealots.

Speaking of, I so called it: A commenter posted this: "Not to be a bother but… If you did a little more exercise… I mean, there are 80 year old people that can do a perfect arch, so the age is just an excuse to do not do anything!"

Ahh, health preachers. Everyone knows what's best for you, and obviously you cannot think for yourself. It's like partisan politics, but way more personal. One side wants to be a coddling Mommy, one side wants to be a strict Daddy, one side wants to be a weird Uncle, nobody wants to actually help you without taking something for themselves. It's fun to sit back and watch, though.

And you know what, guys? I am actually going to ask for yoga advice. Specifically, though, regarding kundalini. I need suggestions for very light, gentle stretches that are good for osteoarthritic knees and hips. In particular, the ligaments are ridiculously tight due to palsy, and they keep tightening back up after any kind of exercise.

You see, I have been having intense dreams in which so much pain has been concentrated in my knees that dream me is often unable to stand and walk without screaming violently, both within and outside the dreams. It has gotten to a certain point in which I start lucid dreaming and become afraid that I cannot change the dream pain. I become afraid in the dream of moving in certain ways. In my dreams, all my fears and anxieties and obsessions are released, naturally, and not even using my cane eases them. It never helps that nobody notices, not unless they are unknown dream people. Too many dreams have taunted me about my friends not seeing these struggles, being too far away, requiring me to walk helplessly until I find relief.
A couple of dreams ago, I was in northern Brooklyn, trying to reach my childhood neighborhood of Midwood, along Kings Highway in southern Brooklyn. No taxi would take me after sundown, and this I was forced to walk and walk, and it did not get better. I had no magic powers. The dream people around me could only walk with me and talk to me.
The dream abruptly dropped me in a Metro station in which the escalators and elevators were broken. It may have been Wheaton, which has the longest escalators in the Western hemisphere.That is indeed a nightmare. For anybody, anywhere, regardless of health. Fitting that it would be in my dreams.

Back on topic: I would love advice on how to apply physical and emotional exercise to my unconscious mind.
However, please do not tell me to stop taking traditional medical treatments. Please do not bash my pharmaceutical medications, since they actively help my symptoms. If you want to see what type of supplements I take that are anti-inflammatory and joint supporting, check my Notes section for a post that lists all my medicine before making a supplement suggestion. Chances are that unless it is an extremely obscure herb, or an unusual TCM medicine, I have tried it.
Eh. I'll post that medication list.
https://www.facebook.com/notes/joanna-capello-paul/take-all-the-pills/10151028056823107
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I cannot say I am well. Am I ever truly well? I mean, the only reason I consistently talk about symptoms is to remind others that we can work with all of this crap. Many of my dear fellow chronically ill cripples want to keep their posts sharing pain to a minimum, which I support, respect, and understand - because, really, it's the same thing day after day. I think the main reason I'm a frequent updater is because I get so many questions, so many please for help, so many requests for advice and suggestions and just words of love. And those things, I can give.

Also I think I may be in a depression episode. It's taken a couple of weeks to realize that. It's so... light. So subtle. Huh.

So. Other things...

http://juststimming.wordpress.com/2012/05/01/truth-is/
"What if being cured didn’t fix those things?
Because ultimately, if I took a cure, I’d be surrendering. Instead of fighting for my right to be treated and valued as a human being regardless of disability, I’d be letting go, giving in, and letting myself be changed into someone easier, someone acceptable, someone convenient. And I want to be clear– there is nothing wrong with wanting things to be easier or wanting to feel safe or accepted or just being done fighting. That just means that you’ve been asked to be much, much stronger than everyone else for much, much too long.
But if, in order to be safe I have to stop being me?
Then I’m really not safe at all."

http://erinmccolecupp.com/2014/05/01/blogging-against-disablism/
"We are prone to feeling defeated because it’s a battle just to get our muscles to move us out of bed every day, so telling us to “be more positive” in the face of that is kind of insulting."

Sensory Processing Disorder. Cerebral Palsy. Temporal Lobe Epilepsy. ADHD-Inattentive. Major Depressive Disorder. Multiple Anxiety Disorders. Autism. Fibromyalgia. Chronic Stress Disorder. Hypersensitivity. Spastic Hypertonia. Migraine Disorder. Chronic headaches. Chondromalacia. Sleep Disorders. Dyscalculia. Sciatica. Chronic Back Pain. Lordosis. Rhinitis. Asthma. Recovering Anorexia.
Oh, absolutely. Being told to "be more positive" is indeed kind of insulting.

My mom keeps telling me that I've fixated too much on being autistic, on advocating, on activism. She suggested that I just BE. I'll take it.
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My modified Disablility Compensated Qi Gong exercises always help, mentally and spiritually and psychologically and physiologically. Like yoga, except Fake Yoga Cripple Style that is not actually yoga. (FYCS. FIX. Ha ha ha...) (Or hey, Fake Yoga Cripple Style Modified Exercise. FYCSME = FIX ME. Ha ha. Wow. Dude.)

But it isn't helping today. I'm too Hollow, which is my term for deep major depression. I'm too Postictal, after that unexpectedly awful seizure yesterday and its aftershock which were tiny seizures for hours. Emotional responses are foreign and results of emotion are mere symptoms, like crying and laughing. I will meditate again, do more qigong work, and breathe and much as possible.
FYI. I am having an episode of pure major Depression plus major Anxiety. This is accompanied by mild memory loss of the past two days. Everything is foggy. I know I should be upset about something, but I cannot feel upset. What is upset, anyway? I think I hurt myself emotionally yesterday. I wish I remembered what it was. I believe it started out with false happiness. Remember that weird assumption of some sort of hypomania? I think I was outside of my rational mind.

Back to special exercises.
People keep suggesting and recommending breathing exercises. I know all of that. I know people just want to share their personal remedies. I love it. Please don't think I am rejecting you. I love hearing your stories. Even the stories about yoga. I wish I could explain why just seeing or hearing the word yoga evokes a sad, upset reaction. It isn't that I am unable to do yoga. It is just that yoga extremists do not listen nor care about my need for compensation. My body was born crooked. I cannot form a proper straight line even if I held on to something. No amount of cajoling, insisting, or pushing different forms will change that. Please don't do that. Please just accept that I have to perform qi gong differently, and that qi gong included poses that are similar to yoga, and that yoga is not the greatest panacea of healing holistic practices. This is part of why I don't want to visit California, which makes absolutely no sense and makes me look prejudiced.

So. Please, please do talk about how much yoga is healing you, because that is beautiful and I am genuinely, honestly joyfully happy. But if you wish to suggest a yoga pose that can be modified for someone with a shaky, spastic, crippled body, please suggest an alternate form. That is all I ask. There is no such thing as a real panacea, even in the botanical world, even in the plant and herb world, and certainly not in the exercise world. It is entirely possible that I will find a set of yoga exercises that will really, truly help me, and I will join the ranks of yoga enthusiasts. Anything is possible. Nothing is off limits. Except evangelism. If I wanted something pushed down my throat, I will drink water mixed with special fruit and plant powders, like sea buckthorn and moringa.
This is coming from my years as a holistic enthusiast and pusher. I was bad. I was essentially an asshole. And then I learned that it was just wrong. I never want to do that again. Just because something works perfectly for me does not mean it will work at all for someone else.

Any form of good physical-spiritual combination exercise, be it yoga, qigong, taichi, strength training, cardio, dead lift weight, isometrics, plyometrics, dance, hardcore dance, etc, is wonderful and beautiful and strengthening, and will help everyone in some personal powerful way. That is the point of exercise.
I love you all. If you really want to help me, don't push me. Just guide me.
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*deep breath, sigh*
Okay. Okay, yoga fanatic friends. I need you to do something for me.
I need you to STOP telling me how [insert yoga form] will change my life or heal my pain or [insert miraculous treatment of symptons]. STOP. PLEASE. I don't wanna. I don't care. I am doing a special form of physical therapy. And then maybe, much much later, maybe, maybe, I will take some sort of yoga for disabled people class. Or tai chi. Or something. (But never Bikram, because what hello you want me to do what in how much heat?) But I really don't need or want anyone bouncing in my face with "Oh, wow Jo, you really need to try this yoga form! It is so lifechanging! It will heal you in so many ways! I have connections! We will have so much fun!"
*deep breath, sigh*
Yeah. I love you, but no. Not now. So do shut up.
Also, I have been seeing so much of that specific enthusiasm on some of my fellow cripples' FB walls and blog comments, and I have kept my mouth shut because it is not my business. But, guys, really, stop trying to fix the world just because you discovered something that people have been doing for thousands of years. I quit doing that after I realized how fucking annoying it was. Because it truly is fucking annoying. Unless I ask, do not offer. Just talk about how it has "changed" your own life. If people are intrigued, they will ask. I promise.
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I am actually feeling really, really, really good right now. Physically loose and relaxed, mentally sharp and witty, verbose and eager to talk, emotionally satisfied.
Granted - I took some medication to ease the pain and tension and fatigue (Soma, Tryptophan, Ashwangandha, Cha De Bugre), but I also did an hour of basic kundalini yoga.

Shortly after waking up, I went downstairs and sprayed the floors with my current favorite disinfecting mild spray cleaner (Seventh Generation, which smells like oregano oil and litsea cubeba oil) and swept with a broom the way Charlotte had showed me yesterday. I sprayed and wiped the countertops, I opened the doors, I breathed in deeply, I made coffee, and I centered myself around the thought that Today Is A Good Day. Then I went back upstairs, did some writing, and waited for Adam to wake up. It's his day off before he leaves for Boston for a week.

Adam is cooking a roast beef in the stove right now, and once that is done, we will go run errands with Charlotte. The sun is shining, the weather is fairly warm and temperate, and it feels like a good Friday in October.

Adam is quietly, proudly amused by my random dancing around and giggling.

It's been a long time since I have felt this promising.
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I am actually feeling really, really, really good right now. Physically loose and relaxed, mentally sharp and witty, verbose and eager to talk, emotionally satisfied.
Granted - I took some medication to ease the pain and tension and fatigue (Soma, Tryptophan, Ashwangandha, Cha De Bugre), but I also did an hour of basic kundalini yoga.

Shortly after waking up, I went downstairs and sprayed the floors with my current favorite disinfecting mild spray cleaner (Seventh Generation, which smells like oregano oil and litsea cubeba oil) and swept with a broom the way Charlotte had showed me yesterday. I sprayed and wiped the countertops, I opened the doors, I breathed in deeply, I made coffee, and I centered myself around the thought that Today Is A Good Day. Then I went back upstairs, did some writing, and waited for Adam to wake up. It's his day off before he leaves for Boston for a week.

Adam is cooking a roast beef in the stove right now, and once that is done, we will go run errands with Charlotte. The sun is shining, the weather is fairly warm and temperate, and it feels like a good Friday in October.

Adam is quietly, proudly amused by my random dancing around and giggling.

It's been a long time since I have felt this promising.
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I am actually feeling really, really, really good right now. Physically loose and relaxed, mentally sharp and witty, verbose and eager to talk, emotionally satisfied.
Granted - I took some medication to ease the pain and tension and fatigue (Soma, Tryptophan, Ashwangandha, Cha De Bugre), but I also did an hour of basic kundalini yoga.

Shortly after waking up, I went downstairs and sprayed the floors with my current favorite disinfecting mild spray cleaner (Seventh Generation, which smells like oregano oil and litsea cubeba oil) and swept with a broom the way Charlotte had showed me yesterday. I sprayed and wiped the countertops, I opened the doors, I breathed in deeply, I made coffee, and I centered myself around the thought that Today Is A Good Day. Then I went back upstairs, did some writing, and waited for Adam to wake up. It's his day off before he leaves for Boston for a week.

Adam is cooking a roast beef in the stove right now, and once that is done, we will go run errands with Charlotte. The sun is shining, the weather is fairly warm and temperate, and it feels like a good Friday in October.

Adam is quietly, proudly amused by my random dancing around and giggling.

It's been a long time since I have felt this promising.
brightrosefox: (Default)
I am actually feeling really, really, really good right now. Physically loose and relaxed, mentally sharp and witty, verbose and eager to talk, emotionally satisfied.
Granted - I took some medication to ease the pain and tension and fatigue (Soma, Tryptophan, Ashwangandha, Cha De Bugre), but I also did an hour of basic kundalini yoga.

Shortly after waking up, I went downstairs and sprayed the floors with my current favorite disinfecting mild spray cleaner (Seventh Generation, which smells like oregano oil and litsea cubeba oil) and swept with a broom the way Charlotte had showed me yesterday. I sprayed and wiped the countertops, I opened the doors, I breathed in deeply, I made coffee, and I centered myself around the thought that Today Is A Good Day. Then I went back upstairs, did some writing, and waited for Adam to wake up. It's his day off before he leaves for Boston for a week.

Adam is cooking a roast beef in the stove right now, and once that is done, we will go run errands with Charlotte. The sun is shining, the weather is fairly warm and temperate, and it feels like a good Friday in October.

Adam is quietly, proudly amused by my random dancing around and giggling.

It's been a long time since I have felt this promising.

Cramped

Jul. 17th, 2009 09:23 pm
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I took a Soma, a Trileptal, and a Tryptophan, waited for them all to kick in, then went through several yoga and Pilates poses.
I still hurt and ache badly, but I am slightly more relaxed. I think. Also, I got in a workout.
I will see Adam very late tonight. He goes back to New York City on Monday. And then to Phoenix, Arizona, for almost two weeks. Such is the high life of a computer tech and IT/AV specialist.
I also danced a little, concentrating on my core and upper body.
I want to be around friends, socially interacting, but I think I won't really know what to do. Don't you hate when it gets awkward?
When I was little, my best friends were books.
Oh, my cats are being utterly affectionate. Meep.
I think I will give myself a facial massage with Vicki's Gaia Oil.
I want to know my future. That's all. I just want to know that we will be all right.

Cramped

Jul. 17th, 2009 09:23 pm
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I took a Soma, a Trileptal, and a Tryptophan, waited for them all to kick in, then went through several yoga and Pilates poses.
I still hurt and ache badly, but I am slightly more relaxed. I think. Also, I got in a workout.
I will see Adam very late tonight. He goes back to New York City on Monday. And then to Phoenix, Arizona, for almost two weeks. Such is the high life of a computer tech and IT/AV specialist.
I also danced a little, concentrating on my core and upper body.
I want to be around friends, socially interacting, but I think I won't really know what to do. Don't you hate when it gets awkward?
When I was little, my best friends were books.
Oh, my cats are being utterly affectionate. Meep.
I think I will give myself a facial massage with Vicki's Gaia Oil.
I want to know my future. That's all. I just want to know that we will be all right.

Cramped

Jul. 17th, 2009 09:23 pm
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I took a Soma, a Trileptal, and a Tryptophan, waited for them all to kick in, then went through several yoga and Pilates poses.
I still hurt and ache badly, but I am slightly more relaxed. I think. Also, I got in a workout.
I will see Adam very late tonight. He goes back to New York City on Monday. And then to Phoenix, Arizona, for almost two weeks. Such is the high life of a computer tech and IT/AV specialist.
I also danced a little, concentrating on my core and upper body.
I want to be around friends, socially interacting, but I think I won't really know what to do. Don't you hate when it gets awkward?
When I was little, my best friends were books.
Oh, my cats are being utterly affectionate. Meep.
I think I will give myself a facial massage with Vicki's Gaia Oil.
I want to know my future. That's all. I just want to know that we will be all right.

Oh!

Apr. 30th, 2007 03:13 pm
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I did it!
To the best of my ability, that is -- which is nothing like the woman in the photo. I bent my knees, because I cannot straighten them like that. But yes, I did it as best I could. I am proud of myself.
I am also able to do the following: This and this and this and this (but nowhere near as well as the photo, ouch).
I hope to improve on everything soon. I really want to learn how to do this.

Oh!

Apr. 30th, 2007 03:13 pm
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I did it!
To the best of my ability, that is -- which is nothing like the woman in the photo. I bent my knees, because I cannot straighten them like that. But yes, I did it as best I could. I am proud of myself.
I am also able to do the following: This and this and this and this (but nowhere near as well as the photo, ouch).
I hope to improve on everything soon. I really want to learn how to do this.

Oh!

Apr. 30th, 2007 03:13 pm
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I did it!
To the best of my ability, that is -- which is nothing like the woman in the photo. I bent my knees, because I cannot straighten them like that. But yes, I did it as best I could. I am proud of myself.
I am also able to do the following: This and this and this and this (but nowhere near as well as the photo, ouch).
I hope to improve on everything soon. I really want to learn how to do this.

stretch

Apr. 30th, 2007 01:08 pm
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"Love grows by giving. The love we give away is the only love we keep. The only way to retain love is to give it away."
- Elbert Hubbard

The DLPA did ease the pain significantly. However, the only thing that will help with the tight, inflamed, overstrained muscles is stretching and massage, and maybe a strong muscle relaxer or two. Yoga tonight.
I am not sure if one of my favorite stretching poses is actually a yoga pose: I lie flat on my back, legs straight and toes pointed, with my arms stretched out to either side, palms flat, and lift my pelvis and legs all the way up until my pointed toes are as far over my head as I can get, and my spine is pressed flat on the floor. I stretch my arms up over my head, palms skyward, and keep stretching until I feel the pull. Occasionally I rock back and forth slightly. I hold the pose for as long as I feel comfortable. Then I lower my legs to the floor, attempt to push down my spine using my abdominal muscles, and stretch out my legs and flex my toes for as long as I can. I repeat the whole process for as long as I feel is necessary. This is really the only way I can deal with lower back issues. My swayback prevents me from pressing my spine completely on the floor without pain and trouble. Afterwards, I do basic hamstring stretches and poses designed to ease sciatica pain. Then I apply a massage oil or lotion and take a hot shower. Anything with sea buckthorn, tamanu, helichrysum, MSM, and/or emu oil helps immensely, as they all relieve pain and muscle tension. Although it is a rare thing for me to find all five of those oils in a single lotion, cream, or oil (the Oxford comma is love).
I would love to try the Setu Bandha Sarvangasana (Bridge Pose) tonight. Can anyone recommend other good poses for the lower back and hamstrings?
The tightness of the muscles and the numbness down my right leg (ah, sciatica) is starting to affect how I walk. I need to remedy this quickly if I am going to keep lifting and moving books and boxes at work. A library assistant can't afford to be physically incapable of working the library necessities -- especially in a law firm.

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Apr. 30th, 2007 01:08 pm
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"Love grows by giving. The love we give away is the only love we keep. The only way to retain love is to give it away."
- Elbert Hubbard

The DLPA did ease the pain significantly. However, the only thing that will help with the tight, inflamed, overstrained muscles is stretching and massage, and maybe a strong muscle relaxer or two. Yoga tonight.
I am not sure if one of my favorite stretching poses is actually a yoga pose: I lie flat on my back, legs straight and toes pointed, with my arms stretched out to either side, palms flat, and lift my pelvis and legs all the way up until my pointed toes are as far over my head as I can get, and my spine is pressed flat on the floor. I stretch my arms up over my head, palms skyward, and keep stretching until I feel the pull. Occasionally I rock back and forth slightly. I hold the pose for as long as I feel comfortable. Then I lower my legs to the floor, attempt to push down my spine using my abdominal muscles, and stretch out my legs and flex my toes for as long as I can. I repeat the whole process for as long as I feel is necessary. This is really the only way I can deal with lower back issues. My swayback prevents me from pressing my spine completely on the floor without pain and trouble. Afterwards, I do basic hamstring stretches and poses designed to ease sciatica pain. Then I apply a massage oil or lotion and take a hot shower. Anything with sea buckthorn, tamanu, helichrysum, MSM, and/or emu oil helps immensely, as they all relieve pain and muscle tension. Although it is a rare thing for me to find all five of those oils in a single lotion, cream, or oil (the Oxford comma is love).
I would love to try the Setu Bandha Sarvangasana (Bridge Pose) tonight. Can anyone recommend other good poses for the lower back and hamstrings?
The tightness of the muscles and the numbness down my right leg (ah, sciatica) is starting to affect how I walk. I need to remedy this quickly if I am going to keep lifting and moving books and boxes at work. A library assistant can't afford to be physically incapable of working the library necessities -- especially in a law firm.

stretch

Apr. 30th, 2007 01:08 pm
brightrosefox: (Default)
"Love grows by giving. The love we give away is the only love we keep. The only way to retain love is to give it away."
- Elbert Hubbard

The DLPA did ease the pain significantly. However, the only thing that will help with the tight, inflamed, overstrained muscles is stretching and massage, and maybe a strong muscle relaxer or two. Yoga tonight.
I am not sure if one of my favorite stretching poses is actually a yoga pose: I lie flat on my back, legs straight and toes pointed, with my arms stretched out to either side, palms flat, and lift my pelvis and legs all the way up until my pointed toes are as far over my head as I can get, and my spine is pressed flat on the floor. I stretch my arms up over my head, palms skyward, and keep stretching until I feel the pull. Occasionally I rock back and forth slightly. I hold the pose for as long as I feel comfortable. Then I lower my legs to the floor, attempt to push down my spine using my abdominal muscles, and stretch out my legs and flex my toes for as long as I can. I repeat the whole process for as long as I feel is necessary. This is really the only way I can deal with lower back issues. My swayback prevents me from pressing my spine completely on the floor without pain and trouble. Afterwards, I do basic hamstring stretches and poses designed to ease sciatica pain. Then I apply a massage oil or lotion and take a hot shower. Anything with sea buckthorn, tamanu, helichrysum, MSM, and/or emu oil helps immensely, as they all relieve pain and muscle tension. Although it is a rare thing for me to find all five of those oils in a single lotion, cream, or oil (the Oxford comma is love).
I would love to try the Setu Bandha Sarvangasana (Bridge Pose) tonight. Can anyone recommend other good poses for the lower back and hamstrings?
The tightness of the muscles and the numbness down my right leg (ah, sciatica) is starting to affect how I walk. I need to remedy this quickly if I am going to keep lifting and moving books and boxes at work. A library assistant can't afford to be physically incapable of working the library necessities -- especially in a law firm.

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