what it's like: complexes
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epileptics asked me what my complex partials are like.
Recorded for posterity.
The world changes. My brain slides. Things turn upside down, sideways, around and around, I am a leaf on the wind. It starts with a... feeling. A sense of Wrong. A sense of Hey What The Fuck, Something's Weird. I stare into space for a bit, trying to figure it out. And then my senses explode. Everything looks brighter, sounds louder, feels stronger, tastes stranger, smells deeper. I find myself touching objects and... just touching them, feeling a different texture and being fascinated. Objects that are mere feet away seem to be across the room. If I am reaching for something, it looks like I am barely moving. To me, it takes forever. Everything is in slow motion.
They usually say that when you have a complex, you can't remember anything -- but most of the time, I do. Not always, obviously, according to eyewitnesses. But I don't lose consciousness. I just usually have memory gaps afterwards. I might be awake and aware, but I'll be completely, frighteningly unresponsive and almost paralyzed. My words will be very slow and stupid-like. I might twitch or jerk my arm or leg especially my left side. The world tilts and falls away. I feel like I am falling through myself, being crushed down by my brain.
After the episodes, I will be very foggy and confused and only remember bits and pieces of what happened and what caused the seizure. Gradually, most of the memory may come back to me. I need to rest for an hour or two. And I get a massive craving for specific foods (orange juice, cold water, bacon, dark chocolate) and a temporary severe avoidance of others (bread, dry food, sugar). If I don't have something salty, bitter, citric, or crunchy soon after a seizure, my recovery time is much longer. My neurologist tells me that my blood sugar and sodium levels need replenishing, hence the craving for orange juice. I also need fats and proteins, hence the bacon craving (crunchy bacon). And the dark chocolate soothes my mind and the cold water wakes me up. If I try to eat bread, I choke because it is too... filling right away. I can't explain it well. I get very thirsty and dizzy.
I keep a stock of SmartWater at home and it really helps.
Oh, by the way...
Unsuspected brain cells may cause epilepsy.
epileptics asked me what my complex partials are like.Recorded for posterity.
The world changes. My brain slides. Things turn upside down, sideways, around and around, I am a leaf on the wind. It starts with a... feeling. A sense of Wrong. A sense of Hey What The Fuck, Something's Weird. I stare into space for a bit, trying to figure it out. And then my senses explode. Everything looks brighter, sounds louder, feels stronger, tastes stranger, smells deeper. I find myself touching objects and... just touching them, feeling a different texture and being fascinated. Objects that are mere feet away seem to be across the room. If I am reaching for something, it looks like I am barely moving. To me, it takes forever. Everything is in slow motion.
They usually say that when you have a complex, you can't remember anything -- but most of the time, I do. Not always, obviously, according to eyewitnesses. But I don't lose consciousness. I just usually have memory gaps afterwards. I might be awake and aware, but I'll be completely, frighteningly unresponsive and almost paralyzed. My words will be very slow and stupid-like. I might twitch or jerk my arm or leg especially my left side. The world tilts and falls away. I feel like I am falling through myself, being crushed down by my brain.
After the episodes, I will be very foggy and confused and only remember bits and pieces of what happened and what caused the seizure. Gradually, most of the memory may come back to me. I need to rest for an hour or two. And I get a massive craving for specific foods (orange juice, cold water, bacon, dark chocolate) and a temporary severe avoidance of others (bread, dry food, sugar). If I don't have something salty, bitter, citric, or crunchy soon after a seizure, my recovery time is much longer. My neurologist tells me that my blood sugar and sodium levels need replenishing, hence the craving for orange juice. I also need fats and proteins, hence the bacon craving (crunchy bacon). And the dark chocolate soothes my mind and the cold water wakes me up. If I try to eat bread, I choke because it is too... filling right away. I can't explain it well. I get very thirsty and dizzy.
I keep a stock of SmartWater at home and it really helps.
Oh, by the way...
Unsuspected brain cells may cause epilepsy.
