Woman Of Sand And Fog
Sep. 14th, 2006 11:37 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
brightrosefoxMy brain is sort of fuzzy today. It is raining and gray outside. I barely got work done on the book yesterday. I needed a shower and rest. My knees ache too much, but they always ache. Although, I discovered a skin cream that takes the pain away for a while. I found out that if I rub it into my hands, the muscles in my left hand unclench, and the trappings of cerebral palsy fall away for just a little while. It's a vegan cream with very organic ingredients. The cream contains tamanu oil, helichrysum oil, rose oil, and sea buckthorn oil, which might explain the CP release. Those oils are good for pain, inflammation, muscle aches, and nerve and muscle pain.
I've been reading Sandman: Book Of Dreams which is a collection of short stories inspired by, and about, Neil Gaiman's Sandman stories. Gaiman edited it, and Tori Amos wrote the afterward. The preface is one of the most brilliant essays I have ever read. It makes me think of college, and literature professors. Even if you don't buy the book, pick it up and read the preface. Here's most of it.
I read the book years ago, but I remember not liking it much because it wasn't Neil Gaiman. Now I have a deeper appreciation. After all, Gaiman would only choose the best of authors to write about his creations.
And Barbara Hambly's "Each Damp Thing" still scares the everliving crap out of me. You want nightmares, read that story. Damn, she is good. Now I want to visit Dream's palace (but I don't ever want to see that mirror).
I must get past this block. It's not distraction -- far from it, even though I browse online every night -- but it's more stagnation. They are there, in my head. I can see them. But the words will not come. The story is there, so where are the words? I have been writing this novel for seven years, and I can usually make the words crawl across the screen even if I am exhausted.
This is why I am frustrated that I cannot find answers on whether or not certain epilepsy drugs interfere with a creative person's ability to think and express words. I'm worried that the Trileptal is taking away my words. I'm not sure how to explain this to the doctors. If I do switch medications, the next drug might do the exact same thing. I need more epileptic writer friends. I need someone who understands.
Who understands here?
I've been reading Sandman: Book Of Dreams which is a collection of short stories inspired by, and about, Neil Gaiman's Sandman stories. Gaiman edited it, and Tori Amos wrote the afterward. The preface is one of the most brilliant essays I have ever read. It makes me think of college, and literature professors. Even if you don't buy the book, pick it up and read the preface. Here's most of it.
I read the book years ago, but I remember not liking it much because it wasn't Neil Gaiman. Now I have a deeper appreciation. After all, Gaiman would only choose the best of authors to write about his creations.
And Barbara Hambly's "Each Damp Thing" still scares the everliving crap out of me. You want nightmares, read that story. Damn, she is good. Now I want to visit Dream's palace (but I don't ever want to see that mirror).
I must get past this block. It's not distraction -- far from it, even though I browse online every night -- but it's more stagnation. They are there, in my head. I can see them. But the words will not come. The story is there, so where are the words? I have been writing this novel for seven years, and I can usually make the words crawl across the screen even if I am exhausted.
This is why I am frustrated that I cannot find answers on whether or not certain epilepsy drugs interfere with a creative person's ability to think and express words. I'm worried that the Trileptal is taking away my words. I'm not sure how to explain this to the doctors. If I do switch medications, the next drug might do the exact same thing. I need more epileptic writer friends. I need someone who understands.
Who understands here?
