A Letter From Ophelia

Do you know how much I love you? Do you really know just how fucking much I love you? I love you so much my chest hurts every time I think your name. I would tear myself to pieces before I saw you bleed. If we were dying I would kill myself to make sure I didn't have to live without you. You've turned me obsessive. I never cried so much as these days I have cried over loving you. You hurt my heart with who you are and you don't even see what you are to me. And when you do you pretend you don't believe.

You're my everything. You're my always. Sometimes it turns to hate and maybe I don't really even know what hate is now that I know what love is. I want to fuck you and love you and kiss you and kill you. You're mine. I can't make you go away. It's scary. It scares me and hurts me and I'm terrified and I never want it to stop and I wish I could make the world stop spinning, but at the same time I want to fly off the edge because maybe it would be straight into you.

"Let's dance in style, lets dance for a while
Heaven can wait we're only watching the skies
Hoping for the best but expecting the worst
Are you going to drop the bomb or not?

Let us die young or let us live forever
We don't have the power but we never say never
Sitting in a sandpit, life is a short trip
The music's for the sad men"

God damn you and what you've done to me. Don't ever stop.