Major Arcana: Strength. The Lion.

[brightrosefox]

You know, I have only allowed myself to love since four years ago, since Adam? I have never loved anyone--friend, sex--before that. And I wish to know them all now, feel them, comfort them, remember their memories. However: If there is one thing I have given to those I love, it is the respect to say, "I don't care who you were in your darkness. I don't care if you killed people, tried to kill yourself or how. I don't care if the blood that ran was real or emotional and you have been royally fucked up in the head; you are here now, and I am here with you, and all I want is who you can be with me now." Maybe I am an angel like they said, and I'm supposed to be able to ease pain and worry just with my presence. Maybe I'm some special precious thing like he told me long ago. But my loves, my wonderfuls, for all your pain you can have my strength because what else am I going to do with it? I told a few people about my premature birth and they all agreed I've been a fighter from the start and I've always been strong, so obviously I have enough strength to give. That's all I wanted to say.