While birds sing the morning awake.

I'm sitting here trying to think of something better to say while the kitten explores the mass of clothes on the closet floor and the boxes piled against the bedroom wall. My insides feel purified, warmed by capsicum but I wonder if I am too hot in certain respects; not something people need to know, but something useful if you ever decided to indulge in spice. I can't eat hot, spicy foods without reacting badly. The capsules were easier. I'm drinking the iced sugared milk.
Adam and I went out to Krispy Kreme late last night. The girl behind the counter was very sweet; along with our two dozen donuts she gave us five or six coupons for "buy a dozen, get a dozen free". His mother is diabetic, his father has high cholesterol (they both have high blood pressure) and I, a hypoglyemic sugar addict, do need to watch my intake. So we will divide up the coupons for other people. We each ate one fresh hot glazed while choosing our poison in the shop, and the rush was all I could take. But I did take a Ziplock bag when we got home, and I packed up a chocolate, a chocolate iced, and a glazed for later. I have two croissants in a bag that I can take to work with me, and stew at work for lunch. I'm trying to be healthy. I'm still skinny, I know, I'm not trying to lose weight of course but I do want to manage my health.
I will regret these sugar binges. Siberian Ginseng and Fenugreek will help. And as always, the wonderful Triphala. I have always had low blood sugar, maybe not true hypoglycemia. When I get hungry, I get weak and irritable, get headaches. Sugar makes me feel instantly better; too much makes me feel energized, loopy, buzzed like intoxication, and burns too quickly, and later makes me hungry and irritable again. I have fainted once or twice before from too little food. I was still anorexic then. I hear that when your blood sugar is low, there's no such thing as too much sugar, but I want to be careful. Too much sugar makes me hyper. I've noticed that Triphala, and Trikatu Plus, help clean out the body and that's useful.
I'm studying Ayurveda in depth now. Eric is very helpful, answering my emails and instant messages promptly and succinctly.

Adam is buried under the blanket that I tried to steal during the night. He rolled over to my side because he has today off from work; and it's easier for me to get out of bed if I'm on his side of the bed, on the outside. I may go with him when his job sends him back to Philadelphia on Sunday. I love him more every morning I wake up. I like to tell myself at least one thing I've fallen in love with about him every day. We do this silently, both of us. Nearly five years, come Thanksgiving, five years. We fall in love still every day.

While birds sing the morning awake.

I'm sitting here trying to think of something better to say while the kitten explores the mass of clothes on the closet floor and the boxes piled against the bedroom wall. My insides feel purified, warmed by capsicum but I wonder if I am too hot in certain respects; not something people need to know, but something useful if you ever decided to indulge in spice. I can't eat hot, spicy foods without reacting badly. The capsules were easier. I'm drinking the iced sugared milk.
Adam and I went out to Krispy Kreme late last night. The girl behind the counter was very sweet; along with our two dozen donuts she gave us five or six coupons for "buy a dozen, get a dozen free". His mother is diabetic, his father has high cholesterol (they both have high blood pressure) and I, a hypoglyemic sugar addict, do need to watch my intake. So we will divide up the coupons for other people. We each ate one fresh hot glazed while choosing our poison in the shop, and the rush was all I could take. But I did take a Ziplock bag when we got home, and I packed up a chocolate, a chocolate iced, and a glazed for later. I have two croissants in a bag that I can take to work with me, and stew at work for lunch. I'm trying to be healthy. I'm still skinny, I know, I'm not trying to lose weight of course but I do want to manage my health.
I will regret these sugar binges. Siberian Ginseng and Fenugreek will help. And as always, the wonderful Triphala. I have always had low blood sugar, maybe not true hypoglycemia. When I get hungry, I get weak and irritable, get headaches. Sugar makes me feel instantly better; too much makes me feel energized, loopy, buzzed like intoxication, and burns too quickly, and later makes me hungry and irritable again. I have fainted once or twice before from too little food. I was still anorexic then. I hear that when your blood sugar is low, there's no such thing as too much sugar, but I want to be careful. Too much sugar makes me hyper. I've noticed that Triphala, and Trikatu Plus, help clean out the body and that's useful.
I'm studying Ayurveda in depth now. Eric is very helpful, answering my emails and instant messages promptly and succinctly.

Adam is buried under the blanket that I tried to steal during the night. He rolled over to my side because he has today off from work; and it's easier for me to get out of bed if I'm on his side of the bed, on the outside. I may go with him when his job sends him back to Philadelphia on Sunday. I love him more every morning I wake up. I like to tell myself at least one thing I've fallen in love with about him every day. We do this silently, both of us. Nearly five years, come Thanksgiving, five years. We fall in love still every day.