Like a flowing river

I think Eric was right about the Taurine. I combined it with GABA and Carnitine -- I sat for what felt like forever, completely and totally calm, happy, and satisfied in general. This was after a massive phobic panic attack bordering on mini seizure, but I think the combination really did something. The panic attack had happened while I had been walking home, slowly and scared, in the cold slippery rain.
I just do not like ice and snow, more than seems reasonable. The streets and sidewalks were covered in slippery stuff tonight. I am not an ice skater. I think I am truly terrified of ice. As I walked and slid along, I think my heart tried to stop a few times, so much panic.
Speaking of... I have not really had a real seizure in a long time, but I think about them because I can remember the sensations. I have noticed that the onset of little seizures, whether they really happen or not, begin at the base of my spine as a twitching, numbing spastic tingle. It feels like the cresting crescendo of an orgasm, actually. A sensation of fingers crawling up the spine, dancing toward the brainstem, humming a soft nerve central emotion song. Emotions get involved for some reason. I think the general seizure triggers something in the brain connected to feeling. One time, I felt as though the world might be ending, and another time I felt as though I could fly to heaven and sing forever.
I took the above mentioned amino acid combination and it disappeared; it was gone in twenty minutes and did not come back. I do not have epilepsy; I have cerebral palsy. Several small studies have shown that Taurine, GABA and Carnitine, as well as Passionflower, can soothe seizures, and Cerebral Palsy's edges, thereby quelling some of the "symptoms" at least for me.
I have not had a big one in many months, since before my wedding. This is good. I have no worries. I told this to my doctor over the phone last week, about those three supplements. She mentioned something about studies having been done, and she does not mind that I take them, as long as I feel that they help. I am not foolish. One day I will sample one of the "real" traditional Western drugs for seizures, but at the moment, I do not feel it is necessary.

I am supremely calm right now. There is nothing bad in my world right now. All is right. All is well. My kitten demands love, and sings until I pet her and scratch under her little chin. My husband and our housemate and our guest get along beautifully. When I came home tonight, Danny and Jason had been watching the pilot episode of "Dead Like Me" on Danny's computer. I loved that show. It sucks that it was cancelled.

Tomorrow is Friday. Yes. A good thing. We shall have a lot of things to do over the weekend. Adam might be working. But that is okay. I will have Jason and Danny around, and I plan on keeping busy. Perhaps housecleaning.

Like a flowing river

I think Eric was right about the Taurine. I combined it with GABA and Carnitine -- I sat for what felt like forever, completely and totally calm, happy, and satisfied in general. This was after a massive phobic panic attack bordering on mini seizure, but I think the combination really did something. The panic attack had happened while I had been walking home, slowly and scared, in the cold slippery rain.
I just do not like ice and snow, more than seems reasonable. The streets and sidewalks were covered in slippery stuff tonight. I am not an ice skater. I think I am truly terrified of ice. As I walked and slid along, I think my heart tried to stop a few times, so much panic.
Speaking of... I have not really had a real seizure in a long time, but I think about them because I can remember the sensations. I have noticed that the onset of little seizures, whether they really happen or not, begin at the base of my spine as a twitching, numbing spastic tingle. It feels like the cresting crescendo of an orgasm, actually. A sensation of fingers crawling up the spine, dancing toward the brainstem, humming a soft nerve central emotion song. Emotions get involved for some reason. I think the general seizure triggers something in the brain connected to feeling. One time, I felt as though the world might be ending, and another time I felt as though I could fly to heaven and sing forever.
I took the above mentioned amino acid combination and it disappeared; it was gone in twenty minutes and did not come back. I do not have epilepsy; I have cerebral palsy. Several small studies have shown that Taurine, GABA and Carnitine, as well as Passionflower, can soothe seizures, and Cerebral Palsy's edges, thereby quelling some of the "symptoms" at least for me.
I have not had a big one in many months, since before my wedding. This is good. I have no worries. I told this to my doctor over the phone last week, about those three supplements. She mentioned something about studies having been done, and she does not mind that I take them, as long as I feel that they help. I am not foolish. One day I will sample one of the "real" traditional Western drugs for seizures, but at the moment, I do not feel it is necessary.

I am supremely calm right now. There is nothing bad in my world right now. All is right. All is well. My kitten demands love, and sings until I pet her and scratch under her little chin. My husband and our housemate and our guest get along beautifully. When I came home tonight, Danny and Jason had been watching the pilot episode of "Dead Like Me" on Danny's computer. I loved that show. It sucks that it was cancelled.

Tomorrow is Friday. Yes. A good thing. We shall have a lot of things to do over the weekend. Adam might be working. But that is okay. I will have Jason and Danny around, and I plan on keeping busy. Perhaps housecleaning.

Like a flowing river

I think Eric was right about the Taurine. I combined it with GABA and Carnitine -- I sat for what felt like forever, completely and totally calm, happy, and satisfied in general. This was after a massive phobic panic attack bordering on mini seizure, but I think the combination really did something. The panic attack had happened while I had been walking home, slowly and scared, in the cold slippery rain.
I just do not like ice and snow, more than seems reasonable. The streets and sidewalks were covered in slippery stuff tonight. I am not an ice skater. I think I am truly terrified of ice. As I walked and slid along, I think my heart tried to stop a few times, so much panic.
Speaking of... I have not really had a real seizure in a long time, but I think about them because I can remember the sensations. I have noticed that the onset of little seizures, whether they really happen or not, begin at the base of my spine as a twitching, numbing spastic tingle. It feels like the cresting crescendo of an orgasm, actually. A sensation of fingers crawling up the spine, dancing toward the brainstem, humming a soft nerve central emotion song. Emotions get involved for some reason. I think the general seizure triggers something in the brain connected to feeling. One time, I felt as though the world might be ending, and another time I felt as though I could fly to heaven and sing forever.
I took the above mentioned amino acid combination and it disappeared; it was gone in twenty minutes and did not come back. I do not have epilepsy; I have cerebral palsy. Several small studies have shown that Taurine, GABA and Carnitine, as well as Passionflower, can soothe seizures, and Cerebral Palsy's edges, thereby quelling some of the "symptoms" at least for me.
I have not had a big one in many months, since before my wedding. This is good. I have no worries. I told this to my doctor over the phone last week, about those three supplements. She mentioned something about studies having been done, and she does not mind that I take them, as long as I feel that they help. I am not foolish. One day I will sample one of the "real" traditional Western drugs for seizures, but at the moment, I do not feel it is necessary.

I am supremely calm right now. There is nothing bad in my world right now. All is right. All is well. My kitten demands love, and sings until I pet her and scratch under her little chin. My husband and our housemate and our guest get along beautifully. When I came home tonight, Danny and Jason had been watching the pilot episode of "Dead Like Me" on Danny's computer. I loved that show. It sucks that it was cancelled.

Tomorrow is Friday. Yes. A good thing. We shall have a lot of things to do over the weekend. Adam might be working. But that is okay. I will have Jason and Danny around, and I plan on keeping busy. Perhaps housecleaning.