the grinding of teeth

"When you can't run anymore you crawl. And when you can't do that anymore, you find someone to carry you."
-Firefly

I'm still not lying down, you know.
Nope.
I'm sitting up.

Most of my right leg is numb. I don't know what I did this morning, but it was enough to keep me in bed seething at my body, until ten-thirty. Only now have I been able to put weight on my foot for more than five seconds. I don't remember what I did. But it feels like the ultimate combination of a sciatica flare-up, a misaligned knee-cap, and a slightly twisted ankle followed by the burning caused by the keloid scars stretching the skin.

But no, it's not so bad. It could be worse. It could be worse. I'm better than this.

As Joss Whedon wrote for the mouth of Buffy the Vampire Slayer moments before her sacrifice to save the world and her sister...

"The hardest thing in the world is to live in it. Live, for me."

I'm just living,
I'm just living.

the grinding of teeth

"When you can't run anymore you crawl. And when you can't do that anymore, you find someone to carry you."
-Firefly

I'm still not lying down, you know.
Nope.
I'm sitting up.

Most of my right leg is numb. I don't know what I did this morning, but it was enough to keep me in bed seething at my body, until ten-thirty. Only now have I been able to put weight on my foot for more than five seconds. I don't remember what I did. But it feels like the ultimate combination of a sciatica flare-up, a misaligned knee-cap, and a slightly twisted ankle followed by the burning caused by the keloid scars stretching the skin.

But no, it's not so bad. It could be worse. It could be worse. I'm better than this.

As Joss Whedon wrote for the mouth of Buffy the Vampire Slayer moments before her sacrifice to save the world and her sister...

"The hardest thing in the world is to live in it. Live, for me."

I'm just living,
I'm just living.

the grinding of teeth

"When you can't run anymore you crawl. And when you can't do that anymore, you find someone to carry you."
-Firefly

I'm still not lying down, you know.
Nope.
I'm sitting up.

Most of my right leg is numb. I don't know what I did this morning, but it was enough to keep me in bed seething at my body, until ten-thirty. Only now have I been able to put weight on my foot for more than five seconds. I don't remember what I did. But it feels like the ultimate combination of a sciatica flare-up, a misaligned knee-cap, and a slightly twisted ankle followed by the burning caused by the keloid scars stretching the skin.

But no, it's not so bad. It could be worse. It could be worse. I'm better than this.

As Joss Whedon wrote for the mouth of Buffy the Vampire Slayer moments before her sacrifice to save the world and her sister...

"The hardest thing in the world is to live in it. Live, for me."

I'm just living,
I'm just living.