Feb. 3rd, 2009

brightrosefox: (mirror girl 1)
http://mirapex.net/fibromyalgia
http://www.prohealth.com/fibromyalgia/basics.cfm
http://chronicfatigue.about.com/od/treatingfmscfs/a/dopamine.htm
http://chronicfatigue.about.com/od/treatingfmscfs/a/norepinephrine.htm
http://chronicfatigue.about.com/od/treatingfmscfs/a/serotonin.htm
http://tenuousatbest.blogspot.com/2007/07/epilepsy-or-just-plain-crazy.html (connections between fibromyalgia, epilepsy, bipolar)

When I was a child, it was confirmed that my dopamine levels were low, I had mild endorphin depletion, I had sensory processing disorder (aka sensory integration disorder), and I would most likely experience an increase in such issues as I grew older. But the doctors and therapists and my parents were so concerned with getting me past the physical cerebral palsy symptoms that they may have overlooked the other problems. I did need to be taught how to walk and run and jump and hold things and pick things up and use my left side and all. Eight years of physical therapy, one year of psychology sessions (I just learned that they were never actually certain it was clinical depression), the rest of my adolescence spent trying to be social and okay with myself. I am almost thirty and I am just coming to terms with the other things, so many other things, additional things; I would not say I am broken, but I am not right with myself. I don't think I can fix myself. I don't think there are things that need fixing. Exploring, understanding, working with, improving. Eventually, I will be completely fine with all of me. It is a journey.
brightrosefox: (Default)
http://mirapex.net/fibromyalgia
http://www.prohealth.com/fibromyalgia/basics.cfm
http://chronicfatigue.about.com/od/treatingfmscfs/a/dopamine.htm
http://chronicfatigue.about.com/od/treatingfmscfs/a/norepinephrine.htm
http://chronicfatigue.about.com/od/treatingfmscfs/a/serotonin.htm
http://tenuousatbest.blogspot.com/2007/07/epilepsy-or-just-plain-crazy.html (connections between fibromyalgia, epilepsy, bipolar)

When I was a child, it was confirmed that my dopamine levels were low, I had mild endorphin depletion, I had sensory processing disorder (aka sensory integration disorder), and I would most likely experience an increase in such issues as I grew older. But the doctors and therapists and my parents were so concerned with getting me past the physical cerebral palsy symptoms that they may have overlooked the other problems. I did need to be taught how to walk and run and jump and hold things and pick things up and use my left side and all. Eight years of physical therapy, one year of psychology sessions (I just learned that they were never actually certain it was clinical depression), the rest of my adolescence spent trying to be social and okay with myself. I am almost thirty and I am just coming to terms with the other things, so many other things, additional things; I would not say I am broken, but I am not right with myself. I don't think I can fix myself. I don't think there are things that need fixing. Exploring, understanding, working with, improving. Eventually, I will be completely fine with all of me. It is a journey.
brightrosefox: (Default)
http://mirapex.net/fibromyalgia
http://www.prohealth.com/fibromyalgia/basics.cfm
http://chronicfatigue.about.com/od/treatingfmscfs/a/dopamine.htm
http://chronicfatigue.about.com/od/treatingfmscfs/a/norepinephrine.htm
http://chronicfatigue.about.com/od/treatingfmscfs/a/serotonin.htm
http://tenuousatbest.blogspot.com/2007/07/epilepsy-or-just-plain-crazy.html (connections between fibromyalgia, epilepsy, bipolar)

When I was a child, it was confirmed that my dopamine levels were low, I had mild endorphin depletion, I had sensory processing disorder (aka sensory integration disorder), and I would most likely experience an increase in such issues as I grew older. But the doctors and therapists and my parents were so concerned with getting me past the physical cerebral palsy symptoms that they may have overlooked the other problems. I did need to be taught how to walk and run and jump and hold things and pick things up and use my left side and all. Eight years of physical therapy, one year of psychology sessions (I just learned that they were never actually certain it was clinical depression), the rest of my adolescence spent trying to be social and okay with myself. I am almost thirty and I am just coming to terms with the other things, so many other things, additional things; I would not say I am broken, but I am not right with myself. I don't think I can fix myself. I don't think there are things that need fixing. Exploring, understanding, working with, improving. Eventually, I will be completely fine with all of me. It is a journey.

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