Sometimes I loathe my body

Still feeling hellish. Actually glad I don't have a job to call in and stay home from, because this is insane. Part of me is flashing back to those days leading up to the anorexia. I've been cringing at the thought of solid food for the past hour or so. It may have been the beef ribs on Tuesday, the pizza yesterday, the grease buildup; I haven't eaten greasy foods in months.
I find comfort in my large Acai Energizer smoothie from Robeks, and my digestive tract seems to be satisfied for the moment. I believe I shall be fine by tomorrow, and if not, I see no reason to leave the house beyond picking up a Soma refill from the CVS down the road. And possibly Pepto Bismol.
I have no idea if this loss of eight pounds is a good thing or a bad thing. Perhaps it really was mostly fluid retention. It is probably a great thing.

Adam does not have to be back at work until tomorrow afternoon, and then he will be off to Mississippi for a time. His paycheck was insane and he will be giving me half of it to help pay bills and mortgage. I should get the first of my two severance paychecks in the middle of this month, too.

Rose has been so profoundly grateful to have Adam home that she has stuck to him like glue. Like purring, kittenish glue. It is truly adorable.

Sometimes I loathe my body

Still feeling hellish. Actually glad I don't have a job to call in and stay home from, because this is insane. Part of me is flashing back to those days leading up to the anorexia. I've been cringing at the thought of solid food for the past hour or so. It may have been the beef ribs on Tuesday, the pizza yesterday, the grease buildup; I haven't eaten greasy foods in months.
I find comfort in my large Acai Energizer smoothie from Robeks, and my digestive tract seems to be satisfied for the moment. I believe I shall be fine by tomorrow, and if not, I see no reason to leave the house beyond picking up a Soma refill from the CVS down the road. And possibly Pepto Bismol.
I have no idea if this loss of eight pounds is a good thing or a bad thing. Perhaps it really was mostly fluid retention. It is probably a great thing.

Adam does not have to be back at work until tomorrow afternoon, and then he will be off to Mississippi for a time. His paycheck was insane and he will be giving me half of it to help pay bills and mortgage. I should get the first of my two severance paychecks in the middle of this month, too.

Rose has been so profoundly grateful to have Adam home that she has stuck to him like glue. Like purring, kittenish glue. It is truly adorable.

Sometimes I loathe my body

Still feeling hellish. Actually glad I don't have a job to call in and stay home from, because this is insane. Part of me is flashing back to those days leading up to the anorexia. I've been cringing at the thought of solid food for the past hour or so. It may have been the beef ribs on Tuesday, the pizza yesterday, the grease buildup; I haven't eaten greasy foods in months.
I find comfort in my large Acai Energizer smoothie from Robeks, and my digestive tract seems to be satisfied for the moment. I believe I shall be fine by tomorrow, and if not, I see no reason to leave the house beyond picking up a Soma refill from the CVS down the road. And possibly Pepto Bismol.
I have no idea if this loss of eight pounds is a good thing or a bad thing. Perhaps it really was mostly fluid retention. It is probably a great thing.

Adam does not have to be back at work until tomorrow afternoon, and then he will be off to Mississippi for a time. His paycheck was insane and he will be giving me half of it to help pay bills and mortgage. I should get the first of my two severance paychecks in the middle of this month, too.

Rose has been so profoundly grateful to have Adam home that she has stuck to him like glue. Like purring, kittenish glue. It is truly adorable.