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Like Water
Jul. 5th, 2010 04:07 pmArgh, sexism. Can someone please remind me why my gender and sexual organs are apparently supposed form the sum total of my personality, behavior, attitude, and life forever? Also, some people say that because I am sexually attracted to women and I'm married to a man, that means I'm confused or shouldn't exist. I totally missed that memorandum. I just assumed that I could do things based on who I am as a person, not because of my reproductive organs and chromosomal inclination. Just wondering. I thought it was easy. I mean, it's 2010 already. Shouldn't we be in outer space?
My husband's birthday is Thursday. He is an aquarium enthusiast and he bought himself a new fish tank, because he set the turtle free in the local lake during the weekend. He consolidated, and discarded the three tanks that had originally been in that space in the living room. Now we will have only one large tank instead of three separate tanks. This will save water and electricity. He and his best friend are currently rearranging things in the living room. I am watching a Futurama marathon.
I am feeling much better, after the tryptophan supplement kicked in last night.
My panic dreams have changed. I used to constantly dream about the last place I worked at, where I only spent seven months and never really connected to my supervisor. In the dreams I would be back at the office, with him looking over my shoulder and asking me if if I really wanted to be back, and I kept feeling pressured because of money. Now, the dreams are about being in a new office setting, being happy and relaxed and thoroughly enjoying the work and making friends. But the panic is still there, it's just the panic of being unable to touch anything, to make a difference. Like I'm a ghost. Would anyone like to give me a Tarot reading? I can give you ten dollars, or maybe barter something.
My mind is flowing like water. Every now and then, there are rocks and waves and ripples and unknown depths.
My husband's birthday is Thursday. He is an aquarium enthusiast and he bought himself a new fish tank, because he set the turtle free in the local lake during the weekend. He consolidated, and discarded the three tanks that had originally been in that space in the living room. Now we will have only one large tank instead of three separate tanks. This will save water and electricity. He and his best friend are currently rearranging things in the living room. I am watching a Futurama marathon.
I am feeling much better, after the tryptophan supplement kicked in last night.
My panic dreams have changed. I used to constantly dream about the last place I worked at, where I only spent seven months and never really connected to my supervisor. In the dreams I would be back at the office, with him looking over my shoulder and asking me if if I really wanted to be back, and I kept feeling pressured because of money. Now, the dreams are about being in a new office setting, being happy and relaxed and thoroughly enjoying the work and making friends. But the panic is still there, it's just the panic of being unable to touch anything, to make a difference. Like I'm a ghost. Would anyone like to give me a Tarot reading? I can give you ten dollars, or maybe barter something.
My mind is flowing like water. Every now and then, there are rocks and waves and ripples and unknown depths.
