Being Alice: Piano Nerves

My central nervous system hurts.
It happened last night.
I remember feeling a sensation take hold, as a tingling full of heat and sharpness ran up and down my body. I remember saying, "Oh, fuck" and then I sighed and closed my eyes. I was already close to the looking glass and the rabbit hole, and then I fell through instantly.
I felt myself actually falling this time, my nerves crying and rushing through me. Sounds became muted. I felt myself start to breath shallowly and quickly. I had to get out. I had to swim back up to the surface. My brain became another dimension in which I was trapped and falling straight down a long, twisted tunnel.
I heard Adam asking questions about the new sound system. I couldn't answer I wasn't there. In the dimension of my mind, I cried out and kicked my feet and struggled against the current.
My nerves began to ache and sing, like piano keys being struck to hard. Each blow sent me higher toward the rabbit hole. I kept forcing myself to hurt and ache. I finally reached the edge of the rabbit hole and touched the looking glass, which rippled and became water. I burst through.
In my body, I took a long breath and slowly opened my eyes. Sound was normal. Pain was rushing through me. I was grateful.
That is all I remember.

Today, I am watching Dr. Horrible's Sing-Along Blog, drinking chocolate superfruit pumpkin coffee, and cuddling my kitten; Rose seems to understand when I am having problems.
Good seizure recovery starts now.

Being Alice: Piano Nerves

My central nervous system hurts.
It happened last night.
I remember feeling a sensation take hold, as a tingling full of heat and sharpness ran up and down my body. I remember saying, "Oh, fuck" and then I sighed and closed my eyes. I was already close to the looking glass and the rabbit hole, and then I fell through instantly.
I felt myself actually falling this time, my nerves crying and rushing through me. Sounds became muted. I felt myself start to breath shallowly and quickly. I had to get out. I had to swim back up to the surface. My brain became another dimension in which I was trapped and falling straight down a long, twisted tunnel.
I heard Adam asking questions about the new sound system. I couldn't answer I wasn't there. In the dimension of my mind, I cried out and kicked my feet and struggled against the current.
My nerves began to ache and sing, like piano keys being struck to hard. Each blow sent me higher toward the rabbit hole. I kept forcing myself to hurt and ache. I finally reached the edge of the rabbit hole and touched the looking glass, which rippled and became water. I burst through.
In my body, I took a long breath and slowly opened my eyes. Sound was normal. Pain was rushing through me. I was grateful.
That is all I remember.

Today, I am watching Dr. Horrible's Sing-Along Blog, drinking chocolate superfruit pumpkin coffee, and cuddling my kitten; Rose seems to understand when I am having problems.
Good seizure recovery starts now.

Being Alice: Piano Nerves

My central nervous system hurts.
It happened last night.
I remember feeling a sensation take hold, as a tingling full of heat and sharpness ran up and down my body. I remember saying, "Oh, fuck" and then I sighed and closed my eyes. I was already close to the looking glass and the rabbit hole, and then I fell through instantly.
I felt myself actually falling this time, my nerves crying and rushing through me. Sounds became muted. I felt myself start to breath shallowly and quickly. I had to get out. I had to swim back up to the surface. My brain became another dimension in which I was trapped and falling straight down a long, twisted tunnel.
I heard Adam asking questions about the new sound system. I couldn't answer I wasn't there. In the dimension of my mind, I cried out and kicked my feet and struggled against the current.
My nerves began to ache and sing, like piano keys being struck to hard. Each blow sent me higher toward the rabbit hole. I kept forcing myself to hurt and ache. I finally reached the edge of the rabbit hole and touched the looking glass, which rippled and became water. I burst through.
In my body, I took a long breath and slowly opened my eyes. Sound was normal. Pain was rushing through me. I was grateful.
That is all I remember.

Today, I am watching Dr. Horrible's Sing-Along Blog, drinking chocolate superfruit pumpkin coffee, and cuddling my kitten; Rose seems to understand when I am having problems.
Good seizure recovery starts now.

Being Alice: Piano Nerves

My central nervous system hurts.
It happened last night.
I remember feeling a sensation take hold, as a tingling full of heat and sharpness ran up and down my body. I remember saying, "Oh, fuck" and then I sighed and closed my eyes. I was already close to the looking glass and the rabbit hole, and then I fell through instantly.
I felt myself actually falling this time, my nerves crying and rushing through me. Sounds became muted. I felt myself start to breath shallowly and quickly. I had to get out. I had to swim back up to the surface. My brain became another dimension in which I was trapped and falling straight down a long, twisted tunnel.
I heard Adam asking questions about the new sound system. I couldn't answer I wasn't there. In the dimension of my mind, I cried out and kicked my feet and struggled against the current.
My nerves began to ache and sing, like piano keys being struck to hard. Each blow sent me higher toward the rabbit hole. I kept forcing myself to hurt and ache. I finally reached the edge of the rabbit hole and touched the looking glass, which rippled and became water. I burst through.
In my body, I took a long breath and slowly opened my eyes. Sound was normal. Pain was rushing through me. I was grateful.
That is all I remember.

Today, I am watching Dr. Horrible's Sing-Along Blog, drinking chocolate superfruit pumpkin coffee, and cuddling my kitten; Rose seems to understand when I am having problems.
Good seizure recovery starts now.

Rain Go Ow

This wholebody nerve pain is getting on my nerves.
Ha.
The rain outside is epic. Flood warnings everywhere, and a tornado watch to the north.
Also, pain. Every chronically pained person I know is having a symptom flare-up to some degree.
I'm going to continue eating popcorn and watching anime. I hope to sleep fairly well later.
Flinch.

Rain Go Ow

This wholebody nerve pain is getting on my nerves.
Ha.
The rain outside is epic. Flood warnings everywhere, and a tornado watch to the north.
Also, pain. Every chronically pained person I know is having a symptom flare-up to some degree.
I'm going to continue eating popcorn and watching anime. I hope to sleep fairly well later.
Flinch.

Rain Go Ow

This wholebody nerve pain is getting on my nerves.
Ha.
The rain outside is epic. Flood warnings everywhere, and a tornado watch to the north.
Also, pain. Every chronically pained person I know is having a symptom flare-up to some degree.
I'm going to continue eating popcorn and watching anime. I hope to sleep fairly well later.
Flinch.

Rain Go Ow

This wholebody nerve pain is getting on my nerves.
Ha.
The rain outside is epic. Flood warnings everywhere, and a tornado watch to the north.
Also, pain. Every chronically pained person I know is having a symptom flare-up to some degree.
I'm going to continue eating popcorn and watching anime. I hope to sleep fairly well later.
Flinch.