Drifting, dimensionally

So, yeah. This is something what happens when you combine mild cerebral palsy with moderate fibromyalgia, temporal lobe epilepsy, and overall neurological damage.
Even after taking all my proper drugs and supplements and exercises, I find that my body is just continuously not happening. Like, literal muscle weakness and fatigue that requires a cane and slow walking and never knowing if things will speed up. I can be chatty and friendly and social to a point, and then get drained. And things still hurt, but in all sorts of different ways that are all uniquely separate. It is...
Hmm...
It is...
See, my body feels loose, but not relaxed. I could fall over easily. My proprioception, my spatial orientation, my depth perception, and my sense of full direction is all shot. I must actively, consciously tell myself to move this way, to move that limb, to watch out for those things over there. My brain folds in on itself, deciding that physical reality is annoying.
Like... last night. I was climbing blindly into bed in the dark, prepared for lovemaking, and the bed felt like a city. Husband had to pull me on top of him and let me know where I actually was in relation to my surroundings. It was trippy and surreal and weird in a... not good, not very bad, just a creepy way. But the orgasms were transdimensional and I was thrilled to separate from my body for a few moments. I think the darkness helped. I didn't know where I was, my entire self felt extreme, and I could release myself without even thinking about the physical. It was very, very tantric and mystical.
Just an example. Sexuality is just one way to breach the chasm between body and soul, blah blah blah, not focusing on body but on spirit, etc.
Hang on, I lost my thoughts...
Ah, yes. Also, the sensation of being in multiple dimensions at once. Oh, that feels fascinating.
I have been feeling like this all day, no matter how social I get and how strong I feel.