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Oy, gods. Gods in my cranium.
Apr. 22nd, 2013 06:22 pmWell, after a good pep-talk with both my mother and my therapist, I've realized that my body issues are mostly due to extreme stress. Like, stress so intense and undermining that I can't feel it, but my body is reacting wildly. Literally, my nerves are so close to the surface that they react to everything - and right now they're reacting to the stresses of moving everything around the house to prepare for the contractors coming in and re-carpeting the living room and re-flooring and re-cabineting the kitchen. I'll be altering my diet a little, trying to de-stress, taking Klonopin and Passionflower every day, keeping Klonopin and Passionflower on hand, and reminding myself as much as possible to relax.
Current symptoms include digestive stress, literal nervous loss of appetite even with hunger, TMJ, exacerbated seasonal allergy symptoms, extreme fatigue and malaise, and fibromyalgia flares that make me want to curl up under heavy blankets and cry.
These can all be mitigated and relieved as much as possible with de-stressing treatments and cutting out certain foods for a while. I just need to remember that.
I also must not let myself get stressed online: Reading inflammatory Facebook posts, over-reacting whenever anyone tells me, "Yeah, that food sounds great, but beware the sugar content. Your pancreas can't handle much." - In fact, I want to write a horror story called "Beware The Sugar" after being given so much irrelevant, unwanted, unsolicited dietary advice that I already know about. I often have to bite back snarky replies like, "Did I say I had high blood sugar? Did I say I was diabetic? Did I say I eat this stuff every day? Do you think I am an idiotic child? Yes, I am aware of the sugar. Look, it says right there. On the label. Sugar content! Yes! I am fucking aware of fucking sugar in my fucking food!" or not engaging in emotionally charged political debates about why I like having a gun along with my swords and daggers and my social liberal ideals and waaah all guns are evil shut the fuck up.
I keep forgetting that my online social circle can have a massive crazy effect on my brain.
The paradox in there is that I NEED that online social circle to stay relaxed and de-stressed. Landmines, eggshells. Hairpulling?
So. for the next few days: Cut back on dairy - substitute coconut milk and almond milk and hazelnut milk and sunflower milk. Cut back entirely on refined sugar and sugary treats. Eat more oatmeal with bananas. Eat more apples and grapes. No acidic fruits. More vegetables. More fish, red meat. Take medications in a timely matter. Meditate.
And, I think, the number one change that must be permanently implemented: Set my alarm clock earlier. Force myself to wake up at 9:00 instead of 11:00. Allow my digestion to really wake up. No matter how foggy and fatigued, fight it. Go outside and soak up sunlight directly, no sunscreen, for twenty minutes. Then apply botanical oils like sea buckthorn to soothe any possible burn. I have learned that I am one of those people who physically, bioactively need direct sunlight for a certain amount of time, and that the best way for me to "screen out" the UV rays is very specific plant extracts. Which work fine for me.
And while that's out there, I've been stumbling across articles saying that "The sun does not cause skin cancer! It is out body's way of fighting inflammations and oxidants! You don't need sunscreen!" And see, this sort of thinking has been happening since the '50s and '60s - healing the body with the mind, nothing new, just upgrading the technology to keep up with the science. Good for them, as long as they don't go insane.
Now, I am one of the biggest fans of craniosacral therapy for myself - it is the one and only therapy that has truly done something incredible for me. I just need to find really good craniosacral therapy doctors in the area.
Current symptoms include digestive stress, literal nervous loss of appetite even with hunger, TMJ, exacerbated seasonal allergy symptoms, extreme fatigue and malaise, and fibromyalgia flares that make me want to curl up under heavy blankets and cry.
These can all be mitigated and relieved as much as possible with de-stressing treatments and cutting out certain foods for a while. I just need to remember that.
I also must not let myself get stressed online: Reading inflammatory Facebook posts, over-reacting whenever anyone tells me, "Yeah, that food sounds great, but beware the sugar content. Your pancreas can't handle much." - In fact, I want to write a horror story called "Beware The Sugar" after being given so much irrelevant, unwanted, unsolicited dietary advice that I already know about. I often have to bite back snarky replies like, "Did I say I had high blood sugar? Did I say I was diabetic? Did I say I eat this stuff every day? Do you think I am an idiotic child? Yes, I am aware of the sugar. Look, it says right there. On the label. Sugar content! Yes! I am fucking aware of fucking sugar in my fucking food!" or not engaging in emotionally charged political debates about why I like having a gun along with my swords and daggers and my social liberal ideals and waaah all guns are evil shut the fuck up.
I keep forgetting that my online social circle can have a massive crazy effect on my brain.
The paradox in there is that I NEED that online social circle to stay relaxed and de-stressed. Landmines, eggshells. Hairpulling?
So. for the next few days: Cut back on dairy - substitute coconut milk and almond milk and hazelnut milk and sunflower milk. Cut back entirely on refined sugar and sugary treats. Eat more oatmeal with bananas. Eat more apples and grapes. No acidic fruits. More vegetables. More fish, red meat. Take medications in a timely matter. Meditate.
And, I think, the number one change that must be permanently implemented: Set my alarm clock earlier. Force myself to wake up at 9:00 instead of 11:00. Allow my digestion to really wake up. No matter how foggy and fatigued, fight it. Go outside and soak up sunlight directly, no sunscreen, for twenty minutes. Then apply botanical oils like sea buckthorn to soothe any possible burn. I have learned that I am one of those people who physically, bioactively need direct sunlight for a certain amount of time, and that the best way for me to "screen out" the UV rays is very specific plant extracts. Which work fine for me.
And while that's out there, I've been stumbling across articles saying that "The sun does not cause skin cancer! It is out body's way of fighting inflammations and oxidants! You don't need sunscreen!" And see, this sort of thinking has been happening since the '50s and '60s - healing the body with the mind, nothing new, just upgrading the technology to keep up with the science. Good for them, as long as they don't go insane.
Now, I am one of the biggest fans of craniosacral therapy for myself - it is the one and only therapy that has truly done something incredible for me. I just need to find really good craniosacral therapy doctors in the area.
