The Return To Innocence

Rant:
Oh, hell no. A headache is one thing. Pain flare everywhere is one thing. Spasticity is one thing. Feeling sick and feverish on top of all that is another thing. Fuck no. This must stop. Gods and universes, PLEASE. I didn't do anything wrong. I don't deserve this. I don't want this. I am tired, I am sore, I am hurting, and this shall not stand. Damn it damn it damn it fuck you body you will start healing. Don't make me come in there.

Resolution:
I am going to start taking Methylsulfonylmethane, Ashwagandha, Noni, and Mangosteen on a daily basis again. I felt so good on that combination in the past. Time to do it again and see what happens.

Reasoning:
Life happens. Life is often insane, ridiculous, unfair, impartial, cruel, and stark raving mad. But we all must carry on.

This question was recently asked of me:
"I know you are hypersensitive, but what are the worst culprits for you? Like, music, smells, noises, lights, etc."

Loud, thumping, deep-bass music is the worst. The kind played in nightclubs at screaming volumes. The kind that you feel so deep in your gut that it hurts. It can trigger migraines and seizures for me and generally grates against my brain. But whenever I ask that it be turned down, and then get snapped at because the person likes his or her music so loud, I back off. I feel like I have no right to ask. I feel like a freak and a whiner. Sometimes I'd rather let myself hurt. I don't want to try and explain how much it physically and neurologically hurts me because I am tired of sounding like I make excuses for myself. I hate asking people to turn music down for me, but at the same time I cannot understand why the hell people need their music so loud. It's been proven to be rather detrimental to aural health, anyway. I actually love that type of music myself -- just at lower volumes.
Seriously, why must that music be so, so deafeningly loud?
Then, there is chemical scent. Perfumes, colognes, aftershaves, deodorants, household cleaners. I'm usually fine, unless those smells are intense, like when someone puts on too much cologne or uses too much chemical cleaner. I don't wear perfume all the time anymore. I have a bottle of Inis Arose and a bottle of Givenchy Very Irresistible. I’ll spritz them on very lightly and I’ll be just fine. The only fragrances I wear regularly now come from my Psyche Lotion and Shea Latte Body Butter from Vicki's store, because she makes the scents very light.

And now I feel as if I complain way too much. I apologize and I truly cannot help it if I’m super sensitive. But that’s how some people are. I just learn to live with it, really. Although I kind of wish people are a little nicer when they roll their eyes and grumble, "You're too sensitive, get over it."

This question was recently asked of me:
"I know you are hypersensitive, but what are the worst culprits for you? Like, music, smells, noises, lights, etc."

Loud, thumping, deep-bass music is the worst. The kind played in nightclubs at screaming volumes. The kind that you feel so deep in your gut that it hurts. It can trigger migraines and seizures for me and generally grates against my brain. But whenever I ask that it be turned down, and then get snapped at because the person likes his or her music so loud, I back off. I feel like I have no right to ask. I feel like a freak and a whiner. Sometimes I'd rather let myself hurt. I don't want to try and explain how much it physically and neurologically hurts me because I am tired of sounding like I make excuses for myself. I hate asking people to turn music down for me, but at the same time I cannot understand why the hell people need their music so loud. It's been proven to be rather detrimental to aural health, anyway. I actually love that type of music myself -- just at lower volumes.
Seriously, why must that music be so, so deafeningly loud?
Then, there is chemical scent. Perfumes, colognes, aftershaves, deodorants, household cleaners. I'm usually fine, unless those smells are intense, like when someone puts on too much cologne or uses too much chemical cleaner. I don't wear perfume all the time anymore. I have a bottle of Inis Arose and a bottle of Givenchy Very Irresistible. I’ll spritz them on very lightly and I’ll be just fine. The only fragrances I wear regularly now come from my Psyche Lotion and Shea Latte Body Butter from Vicki's store, because she makes the scents very light.

And now I feel as if I complain way too much. I apologize and I truly cannot help it if I’m super sensitive. But that’s how some people are. I just learn to live with it, really. Although I kind of wish people are a little nicer when they roll their eyes and grumble, "You're too sensitive, get over it."