Mental air freshener
Jan. 13th, 2004 01:34 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
brightrosefoxIt's amazing how lunch and a little makeup can lift your mood. I already completely dismissed what freaked me out so badly this morning. Besides, I got cuddled and hugged and kissed a lot to calm me down and that made me feel extremely loved and cared for. As well I should be; he's a good boyfriend and I love him very very muchly.
So I am no longer as fiercely depressed as I was when I got on the Metro. I do know that after my seizures, I'll usually have vertigo and nausea and all my senses will be so razor sharp and bright that it's like a migraine without pain and I'll bump into things or be unable to focus or process the world around me for a short while. And I'll be really sleepy. Good thing I napped on the Metro for the thirty-five minute ride. But also one of the things that lingers after a seizure, for me, is dark, dark, depression and the overwhelming desire to punish myself because the world has gone all tilty and wrong and it's somehow my fault, since sometimes reality is what you make of it.
It's sunny outside. They say it's going to snow soon. *whimper*
So I am no longer as fiercely depressed as I was when I got on the Metro. I do know that after my seizures, I'll usually have vertigo and nausea and all my senses will be so razor sharp and bright that it's like a migraine without pain and I'll bump into things or be unable to focus or process the world around me for a short while. And I'll be really sleepy. Good thing I napped on the Metro for the thirty-five minute ride. But also one of the things that lingers after a seizure, for me, is dark, dark, depression and the overwhelming desire to punish myself because the world has gone all tilty and wrong and it's somehow my fault, since sometimes reality is what you make of it.
It's sunny outside. They say it's going to snow soon. *whimper*
