I love you, food. You has a flavor! Come back, flavor!

I know it's not a good idea to post about food and health issues here, so I shall start by begging you to not feel jealous or mutter "I wish I had that problem" because you don't want it, you really really don't, because it's creepy and awful and disastrous and it makes me cry.
I'm 33. Who knows what will happen if I can't control this?

I eat, and I exercise, just not enough. My appetite stimulating ghrelin hormone has been chained in a basement, and my appetite is so poor that I can only finish half of anything.

And I am concerned and Adam is concerned and once I see my doctors they will be concerned and I just want to Eat All The Foods but it's like sand in my throat, and my stomach is so full and I want to cry.
Adam believes I am skirting the borderline anorexia edge, and I say hell no. I don't even think about fat or weight or appearance. I haven't lost or gained weight or inches or anything...yet.
But that may be the beginning stage of backsliding and I don't wanna! It scares me! I just want to eat normally again! I want to exercise enough so it makes me hungry!

Start me on bananas and asparagus and yogurt superfruit smoothies, I don't care, I just want to eat!

Okay, I'm finished.

Please return to your lives as scheduled.

Also, I'm sorry.

Also there is a large comet between Earth and the Moon right now.

We spent the day running little random errands, and I got to completely geek out with our friend John who is awesome.
Tonight's linner (late lunch and early dinner) will be pasta in a vodka cream sauce. I had better eat a bunch of it. *shakes fist*
Tomorrow, we go to Kaiser Permanente, where Adam will have physical therapy at 11:30 and then the MRI of his lower back at 4:00. In between, we will go shopping and have lunch and discuss things.

I myself am trying to do all the home therapies I've been taught, all the exercises and meditations and such.

Also, we went to Home Depot and bought flower bulbs, and I spent some time planting tulip bulbs everywhere along the front walk. Multi-colored tulips, Spring 2013. Also an amaryllis, and an olive tree and a pomegranate tree.

I don't know what else to say. Mainly because Rose is on my lap demanding snuggles.