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brightrosefoxI apologize for that last entry. I was skidding on the edge of a dark place. I haven't felt like that in a long time. I was faced with a trigger and I let myself get pulled in. I know I'm better than that.
However...
I have been thinking seriously. I love my curves and they won't go away if I lose ten pounds, I know that. The weight loss would be only for health reasons and health reasons alone; no magic numbers or obsessions. I'd just feel better about my health overall. No single weight will make me happier, and I know full well that I shouldn't complain or whine to others, and if I want to do it, I should just do it. Which is why I am now reading over that little entry and cringing, because, really, wow, I'm sorry about that.
I forgot that I shouldn't make LJ posts when I am upset at myself like that; I get cryptic and people get worried.
No worries. I'm okay. I won't delete the post, but I will rethink why I posted it. To be honest, I haven't even gotten around to reading the comments yet, so to those who commented, I'm sorry and I'm okay. I just wanted to get this out right away.
I am back at work and grateful. My brain is better, my muscles are better.
However...
I have been thinking seriously. I love my curves and they won't go away if I lose ten pounds, I know that. The weight loss would be only for health reasons and health reasons alone; no magic numbers or obsessions. I'd just feel better about my health overall. No single weight will make me happier, and I know full well that I shouldn't complain or whine to others, and if I want to do it, I should just do it. Which is why I am now reading over that little entry and cringing, because, really, wow, I'm sorry about that.
I forgot that I shouldn't make LJ posts when I am upset at myself like that; I get cryptic and people get worried.
No worries. I'm okay. I won't delete the post, but I will rethink why I posted it. To be honest, I haven't even gotten around to reading the comments yet, so to those who commented, I'm sorry and I'm okay. I just wanted to get this out right away.
I am back at work and grateful. My brain is better, my muscles are better.
