At least it's a nice day outside
Jun. 24th, 2008 01:12 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
brightrosefoxToday is becoming another one of those days where I want to rip out my central nervous system and flail shrieking with rage until the pain stops.
I also need to stop stressing. In general. Perhaps if I quit trying to convince myself that stuff is completely my fault, I'll feel better. I can't do anything about other people's idiocy, either, even as they make my own failings stand out just as brightly. And I know I have failed. I know that once again, I have proved a certain incompetence about myself. This makes me angry at myself, which makes me hurt more, which makes me angry, which makes me upset. So now, it is just a lovely violent cycle of physical pain, mental aggravation, emotional anxiety, and spiritual unrest.
When I get home, I will most likely take one of my husband's hydroco-apap tablets. Judging from last time, the Soma probably won't help as much as I'd like.
I keep ripping, biting, and tearing at a bloody hangnail on my right thumb. My hand is throbbing. I should probably just apply some salve and leave it alone, but when one is anxious and irritated, little annoyances just keep growing and must be dealt with.
I am not in a good mood.
That is all.
I also need to stop stressing. In general. Perhaps if I quit trying to convince myself that stuff is completely my fault, I'll feel better. I can't do anything about other people's idiocy, either, even as they make my own failings stand out just as brightly. And I know I have failed. I know that once again, I have proved a certain incompetence about myself. This makes me angry at myself, which makes me hurt more, which makes me angry, which makes me upset. So now, it is just a lovely violent cycle of physical pain, mental aggravation, emotional anxiety, and spiritual unrest.
When I get home, I will most likely take one of my husband's hydroco-apap tablets. Judging from last time, the Soma probably won't help as much as I'd like.
I keep ripping, biting, and tearing at a bloody hangnail on my right thumb. My hand is throbbing. I should probably just apply some salve and leave it alone, but when one is anxious and irritated, little annoyances just keep growing and must be dealt with.
I am not in a good mood.
That is all.
