Confessions of a Tech Wife

[brightrosefox]

Adam is going to New York, Manhattan. He'll be there until Thursday. He has to set up a huge show for SIFMA. His sciatica is still flaring badly, which is breaking my heart. I've starting having nightmares about the year I was seventeen -- the year of the worst pain I've ever had. The family doctor had told my mother that this was the worst case of sciatica he'd ever seen in a young woman. I barely slept at night, couldn't sit still or stand still. Doing anything hurt. It wasn't until I had acupuncture that everything got so much better.
Adam is not me. To him, this pain is annoying. I've sent him off with anti-inflammatory drugs and supplements, fish oil, a massage oil, and the knowledge of several stretches and yoga poses. He says it will go away on its own, his pain. I find myself bursting into tears because I believe it won't just go away on its own. He comforts me and insists that he will be fine. My emotion response is coming out as fear and worry, and more tears. He touches me reassuringly, kisses me all over, loves me for worrying, wants me not to worry.
This morning we held each other in bed and tried not to let go. I don't think we've ever been so reluctant for him to leave on an out-of-state job. When he went downstairs to get his backs ready, I went with him in my bra and panties, and he hugged me and said, "Goodbye, beautiful pink thing" and kissed me, and I closed the front door behind him. I went upstairs, took one of the body pillows, and slammed it against the bed a few times, and gritted my teeth and shrieked for a bit. I went back to sleep with Jupiter curled up near my feet. Woke up shortly after noon, played with the cats (Luna has taken a liking to my yoga mat in the spare room, burrowing under it like a snake). Ate my breakfast, a bowl of acai pomegranate granola. I'll take a walk shortly, with lots of sunscreen and a white hat. It's 90 degrees, after all. I want to get out in the sun, do something to get rid of the fibro flare and unhappiness.

Comments

[greenteadragon.livejournal.com]

Cold chai latte with coffee liqueur will make you feel nice, at least it's making me feel nice and cooling me off. Sun bathing naked would also make me feel nice, maybe I'll do that later. Sunshine helps.

*hugs*

[brightrosefox.livejournal.com]

Ooooh, that sounds lovely!

[myrhineatrocity.livejournal.com]

I feel odd commenting on this one as I just started reading you and you don't know me, but I am informing you that I am reading and hope you have a good day.

[brightrosefox.livejournal.com]

Thank you for reading! It always suprises and pleases me when someone I don't know tells me that they've been reading my journal. My day is getting better, I'll say that.

[flyingshaman.livejournal.com]

*hugs you*

I'm thinking about you, and holding you and Adam in my thoughts and energy. May he be well.

[walksbeauty.livejournal.com]

Shoot... I'm sorry he has to leave. When I have sciatica I'm so distracted it's hard to focus.. hard to sit, hard to stand, hard to lay down, hard to move, hard to be still. I'll have to learn your recommedations since when I get it, it's persistent. I do hope Adam's is going going gone... ! And that you have a nice walk.. and these next few days doing something fun for yourself and *creative*. Wish we could hang out and goof around... make a batch of some yummy soap or lotion!

[brightrosefox.livejournal.com]

Sciatica is one of the most evil things I think a human being can suffer through, it's so vicious... And Adam ias a whole s hard to treat; he doesn't respond as well or as quickly to treatments as most people. I was very happy to find out that he's responded well to the passion flower, fish oil, and MSM, though. He's been taking Robaxisil and Soma every day for a couple of weeks, and has yet to really feel relief. But he's going to keep at it, because the drugs are probably still helping, even if he can't feel it. His medication of choice is still cannabis, though; it's one of the few drugs that actually works for him!

I wish you and I could hang out too. We would have so much fun! Do you think you will ever plan on coming to DC?

[walksbeauty.livejournal.com]

Well, we seem to have yet one more thing in common.. Jack's choice for what ails him is cannabis. He's nice about taking all the things I lineup for him but notices very little if any change. It is SO ridiculous that it's not legal! I wonder if you'd qualify for the medical program in a legal state?

I might need to ask my Doc for that Robaxisil stuff since I have such chronic pain with my back, sciatica & feet and when I get a bad bout nothing works any more... I'd at least like to try it. So far I keep things under control with the natural stuff except a little ibuprofen & the Fiorinal for bad migraines.

I lived in DC for a summer when I was dancing at George Washington U... I have no plans that I know of now :) We can hang out in the astral sometime..! Maybe you'd come to the South West sometime!

[brightrosefox.livejournal.com]

I'd love to hang out in the astral; it's been a while since I've done that. :)

I definitely want to come out to the South West soon, I just need time and money!

[walksbeauty.livejournal.com]

Sedona is such a wonderful place! Where we are is so different climate-wise... we don't have that dry heat like Arizona but we also don't have the humidity like so many other places. It's nice and breezy, warm with cool nights. You'll come some day!

[brightrosefox.livejournal.com]

Some people actually think coffee is toxic. I wonder what the people in South America have to say to that, and their ancestors!

[sidheblessed.livejournal.com]

*hugs*