Winding Down

[brightrosefox]

I finally took my walk around 4:30, when Jason and Megan started playing their video game in the living room. Video games in general tend to irritate me for a bunch of reasons, even though I can enjoy them. And between PMS and head injury, my irritibility was a tad high, so I figured I needed to get walking. Twenty-five minutes to the local Giant Food store, where I bought some tropical juice with goji, and a box of Entenmann's All Butter French Crumb Cake. It satisfied a craving. I rode the bus back. The "God Of War" game was still going on, so I went upstairs and watched some TV in my bedroom for two hours. Came downstairs to get some dinner: leftover grilled salmon cut up and mixed with orzo. Video game still going. Eventually I'd like to finish watching Season 7 of the Simpsons and some Babylon 5 before bed (Jason knows this and may soon quit). But there is also trash to be taken out, a kitchen floor to be mopped, litter boxes to be scooped, and a chapter to write. At least with the internet, I don't need to find "save points" in order to stop, so I can actually quit and go do other things.
Fuck. I really really don't like feeling so cranky. I need to stop feeling like I want to smash something. But I also don't feel the need to be apologetic. I can be damn cranky if I want. I'm PMSing and I got hit on the head with a chrome-plated showerhead, for fuck's sake.

My head feels better. Adam is safely in his hotel in St. Louis. My kitten is still profoundly adorable. I have goji juice. I have salmon and orzo for dinner. So I'm happy about many things.