Almost nostalgia
Jun. 26th, 2008 11:16 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
brightrosefoxAdam will be driving to New York today. He'll be going to the hamlet of Purchase, in the town of Harrison, in Westchester County. He'll stay overnight and come home Friday night.
Purchase is the home of my alma mater. SUNY Purchase has probably changed several dozen times since I graduated in 2001. I told Adam to wave hi to the campus.
It makes me think about all the life I experienced during those years. After I finished my previous entry on forgiveness, I let myself remember the bullshit and betrayals and lies and frightening things and bad people. And I let it all go. I watched it disappear into my past and I gave it the finger and I turned back toward where I am now and I looked at where I am going and I sighed and said, "It's all good."
SUNY Purchase was where I started writing the novel, back in late 2000 when I was 19. It's changed a million times since then, and several people who originally inspired it have been out of my life for years, and I miss most of them and don't miss others. And that's fine. It's best that this book have its own life. For a while, it didn't.
I remember sitting in one of the campus computer rooms for hours upon hours, typing until my hands ached and my fingertips were numb. Pages and pages and chapters and chapters and rewrites and rewrites. During those hours, I had no obligations, nothing else to do. No classes, no work, no bills, no pressing business, no phones, no television, no internet aside from research and reference, no blogs, no emails, no websurfing. No distractions. Just me, in a chair, at a computer, with MS Word, and sometimes headphones and music. I feel like I need to get back into that mindset. Shut myself away, with headphones and music. I would use the internet only for research and reference points. I'd get back to life when my pages were done, when there was no more energy left in my writerbrain, when the chapter was finished.
When I get home, I must start that. The week is almost gone. I don't think I'll be eating Bruster's ice cream this weekend. Or any treats. Hopefully next weekend.
Purchase is the home of my alma mater. SUNY Purchase has probably changed several dozen times since I graduated in 2001. I told Adam to wave hi to the campus.
It makes me think about all the life I experienced during those years. After I finished my previous entry on forgiveness, I let myself remember the bullshit and betrayals and lies and frightening things and bad people. And I let it all go. I watched it disappear into my past and I gave it the finger and I turned back toward where I am now and I looked at where I am going and I sighed and said, "It's all good."
SUNY Purchase was where I started writing the novel, back in late 2000 when I was 19. It's changed a million times since then, and several people who originally inspired it have been out of my life for years, and I miss most of them and don't miss others. And that's fine. It's best that this book have its own life. For a while, it didn't.
I remember sitting in one of the campus computer rooms for hours upon hours, typing until my hands ached and my fingertips were numb. Pages and pages and chapters and chapters and rewrites and rewrites. During those hours, I had no obligations, nothing else to do. No classes, no work, no bills, no pressing business, no phones, no television, no internet aside from research and reference, no blogs, no emails, no websurfing. No distractions. Just me, in a chair, at a computer, with MS Word, and sometimes headphones and music. I feel like I need to get back into that mindset. Shut myself away, with headphones and music. I would use the internet only for research and reference points. I'd get back to life when my pages were done, when there was no more energy left in my writerbrain, when the chapter was finished.
When I get home, I must start that. The week is almost gone. I don't think I'll be eating Bruster's ice cream this weekend. Or any treats. Hopefully next weekend.
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Date: 2008-06-26 09:03 pm (UTC)If you ever get up this way yourself, let me know. I love getting together with Purchase people!
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Date: 2008-06-26 11:07 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-06-27 12:59 am (UTC)I see office building walls and get nostalgic.
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Date: 2008-06-27 06:07 am (UTC)I know somewhere (not sure, seen it recently) I have the microsoft package thing that has word and...all that other crap I have no idea how to use. (heh.)
I don't know if any of that is helpful in our discussion of beta'ing, but it's a start. Will look for the other cd tomorrow when I have um..light.
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Date: 2008-06-27 01:53 pm (UTC)