I love him, always.

[brightrosefox]

Because he's out fishing, having fun, relaxing, it's giving me time to sit back and do some thinking. I just saw this online advice column where someone asked about a relationship that started online, so I thought about it. We didn't truly meet online, since Tish already had met and befriended us both, and therefore set us up, and the only way to do that was through email and AIM, and then the phone. The advice column talked about knowing someone before you meet them -- really knowing them. And I thought about it. We spent two years apart, sporadically visiting every month or so, but we never got much of a chance to truly know each other outside phone calls and weekend visits. Once I moved from NY to MD to live with him, we really got to know each other. All the good and the bad, the flaws, the habits, the neuroses, the quirks. And I think the conclusion is that we can keep living with each other and loving each other. We sort of flung ourselves into the "in love" part without a first kiss. Granted, we had met as friends six months before that first kiss, but that meeting had been a little screwed up, because he was then dating my friend and not me, since my friend was the clone of his ex-fiancee. He had meant to come to see me instead, and fell for her. So that didn't work. But a month later, she broke it off and he was so distraught, I felt that he should be left alone. Until I decided to send him an email one day asking how it was -- and it just snowballed. We did fall in love after talking on the phone every day for months. And now we fall in love every day. I think it's very important that, even when you do fall in love online, you need to make sure that once you meet you're sure you can deal with it in person for a long time.

I'm glad we made it this far. I hope we keep going.