Fear itself
May. 11th, 2004 10:44 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
brightrosefoxI had written out this whole thing about myself -- the way I see my fears, my bad habits, the things about me that people don't like -- but I realized it was getting way too personal, even for a friends list, at the moment. It's folded up in my purse right now. I take it out and read it when I need a confidence boost. One day I might type it up and show it to my lover, because his comfort is always welcome and desired.
I don't like to admit fear when I'm trying to be strong. But the subconscious mind is such a powerful thing. We never even know what's going on sometimes. I've thought dark thoughts. Like that would help. But it's the coward's line of thinking. So I make myself laugh. I look in the mirror and remind myself of what is good about me. I ask myself, "What is there to love? What do they love about me?"
We all ask ourselves this. Every day. Whether we know it or not.
I don't like to admit fear when I'm trying to be strong. But the subconscious mind is such a powerful thing. We never even know what's going on sometimes. I've thought dark thoughts. Like that would help. But it's the coward's line of thinking. So I make myself laugh. I look in the mirror and remind myself of what is good about me. I ask myself, "What is there to love? What do they love about me?"
We all ask ourselves this. Every day. Whether we know it or not.