Not the musical
May. 12th, 2004 11:52 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
brightrosefoxAdam is going to Chicago. He came back last Sunday from a two-week job in Pittsburg, and this Saturday he'll be going to Chicago to set up more computers for another conference. At least he'll only be gone until the following Tuesday this time.
On a completely unrelated note:
My boss just told me something interesting: A lawyer friend of his has been representing rich people who keep on failing tests like the learner's permit test at the DMV. Usually the cases are settled out of court when the DMV just lets the people pass. It's gotten a lot of buzz in the ADD communuties. There are a lot of people out there who, depsite knowing the answers, still can't quite pass. They freeze up at the last minute, or second-guess themselves. Yeah, it's their fault. But the DMV does need a better system, so people don't have to wait so long and keep going through so much grief just to retake the test.
I've stopped being angry with myself. I know I have confidence now. But, as Adam and Charlotte both said, my subconscious keeps telling me I am still scared to drive. Of course I am. But that can't stop me from trying again and again to get it right. I need to get past it. This time, it was just one question that killed me. Just one. It was annoying, but it showed me that I cannot second-guess myself so much.
I think the Strattera will help put me in focus. Next week when I go back for the test, I have a feeling I'll pass. And if not, there is nothing stopping me from going back. It's not the end of the world. I am going to learn no matter what. I have the conviction now. I may not have it all the time, but I know that when I really want something, I'll do anything to get it. And I want this. Consciously, I want this. I'm just hoping I can easily convince my subconscious of it.
Sigh.
On a completely unrelated note:
My boss just told me something interesting: A lawyer friend of his has been representing rich people who keep on failing tests like the learner's permit test at the DMV. Usually the cases are settled out of court when the DMV just lets the people pass. It's gotten a lot of buzz in the ADD communuties. There are a lot of people out there who, depsite knowing the answers, still can't quite pass. They freeze up at the last minute, or second-guess themselves. Yeah, it's their fault. But the DMV does need a better system, so people don't have to wait so long and keep going through so much grief just to retake the test.
I've stopped being angry with myself. I know I have confidence now. But, as Adam and Charlotte both said, my subconscious keeps telling me I am still scared to drive. Of course I am. But that can't stop me from trying again and again to get it right. I need to get past it. This time, it was just one question that killed me. Just one. It was annoying, but it showed me that I cannot second-guess myself so much.
I think the Strattera will help put me in focus. Next week when I go back for the test, I have a feeling I'll pass. And if not, there is nothing stopping me from going back. It's not the end of the world. I am going to learn no matter what. I have the conviction now. I may not have it all the time, but I know that when I really want something, I'll do anything to get it. And I want this. Consciously, I want this. I'm just hoping I can easily convince my subconscious of it.
Sigh.
