Not the musical

[brightrosefox]

Adam is going to Chicago. He came back last Sunday from a two-week job in Pittsburg, and this Saturday he'll be going to Chicago to set up more computers for another conference. At least he'll only be gone until the following Tuesday this time.

On a completely unrelated note:

My boss just told me something interesting: A lawyer friend of his has been representing rich people who keep on failing tests like the learner's permit test at the DMV. Usually the cases are settled out of court when the DMV just lets the people pass. It's gotten a lot of buzz in the ADD communuties. There are a lot of people out there who, depsite knowing the answers, still can't quite pass. They freeze up at the last minute, or second-guess themselves. Yeah, it's their fault. But the DMV does need a better system, so people don't have to wait so long and keep going through so much grief just to retake the test.
I've stopped being angry with myself. I know I have confidence now. But, as Adam and Charlotte both said, my subconscious keeps telling me I am still scared to drive. Of course I am. But that can't stop me from trying again and again to get it right. I need to get past it. This time, it was just one question that killed me. Just one. It was annoying, but it showed me that I cannot second-guess myself so much.
I think the Strattera will help put me in focus. Next week when I go back for the test, I have a feeling I'll pass. And if not, there is nothing stopping me from going back. It's not the end of the world. I am going to learn no matter what. I have the conviction now. I may not have it all the time, but I know that when I really want something, I'll do anything to get it. And I want this. Consciously, I want this. I'm just hoping I can easily convince my subconscious of it.

Sigh.

Comments

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[my-piece-of-sky.livejournal.com]

being away from the one you love sucks, trust me, i know...my bf isn't going on trips or anything, but he works *all the time*, and i'm uber-busy, so it's hard to spend more than a few exhausted hours here and there together. on another note: the dmv is of the devil. me, i passed the test, something like 3 times, but there was always something wrong...and they kept making me go back, and eventually making me re-take the test, cuz they lost the info, or there was a block and then it had been over 2 weeks before i could get back there [you know, that working thing...]. it's just evil, and frustrating, but no, it is not the end of the world, and yes, you will get through it. and just think, while horribly frustrating, at least the dmv people didn't refuse to give you an ID because half of your ID had your middle initial on it and half didn't [because the difference between Nicole A. Lopez Jantzen and Nicole Lopez Jantzen..you know, it must be 2 different people]. also once after something ridiculous like my 5th trip for the same stupid problem, i asked to talk to a supervisor, who was just evil, and then she *refused* to give me her full name...or put me in touch w/ her supervisor. so, i guess the point is, the dmv is just plain evil, and don't feel too bad :)

[ronin-lethe.livejournal.com]

when you get to the point where you say "now i will do this", then you will do it. that is all.
wait adam leaves THIS saturday? lameass. now i have to try to get us down there friday.

[brightrosefox.livejournal.com]

Timing is a bitch. He leaves this Saturday morning. Blah. Good news is, he has the whole week off!

[ronin-lethe.livejournal.com]

good for him. i am jealous. i was at work until 3 am. i'd say i feel like ass, buti don't even feel that good. more like something that was run over by ass.
blech. plus it's 80 degrees here and the air quality is so bad that this morning i asked watson if we had somehow inadvertently moved to LA in our sleep.

[brightrosefox.livejournal.com]

Eww. I'm sorry to hear that; I wish I could give you a big hug. It's 80 here, too. I think the entire East Coast has moved to L.A. now. Oy.

[moronqueen.livejournal.com]

I can believe the DMV thing...at least in NY, the tests were computerized with no option to take it on paper, which would have helped me emensely. Plus, they kept changing the True/False options around, so it would mess even more with anyone who happens to have dyslexia...bleh.

*hugs* You'll get there...just keep at it.

[brightrosefox.livejournal.com]

Heh. We have those computer systems in Maryland, too, and every test has the questions all switched around in different orders. You could take the test four or five times *cough* and still get confused. I'm pretty sure they have a paper option -- or they used to -- but that would mean going through more hassle. And who wants to spend more time there? Oy.

Thanks. I know I'll get there. Like Beca said, the day I can tell myself "I will do this" instead of just "I want to do this" that's what I know how far I've come.

[moronqueen.livejournal.com]

They said they had a paper option...and when I asked, they said it wasn't available...hmm...yeaaah...*shakes head* Isok...take it as much as you need to...and Beca is very right. *hugs*

[my-piece-of-sky.livejournal.com]

where in ny do they have computers?! eh, i took it in yonkers...aka purgatory, and there they only have paper...which, incidentally, if you have a block for some reason, they throw into a filing cabinet and promptly lose your results. yuck, the dmv is just evil.

[moronqueen.livejournal.com]

Oh? How weird...I was in Syracuse, NY when I took mine...riiiiight smack-dab in the middle of the state.