Is it the weekend yet?
Jun. 16th, 2004 10:00 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
brightrosefox*deep breath* Wow. I didn't realize how much I missed him until I called his cell and got his voicemail. I left a standard "I love you and I miss you" message. But I really do hope I hear from him; I'm worried about what all this work is doing to him and Lex physically. Our boys tend to get muscle knots a lot. Bad ones. Painfully bad ones. Am I being Clingy Girlfriend? I hope I'm not. I do chalk it up to my Time of the Month right now -- my emotions and hormones are running amok and I'm oversensitive to everything. Little worries get blown out of proportion in my subconscious -- Adam's fear of flying and his worries about turbulence, of course, will probably manifest in my dreams tonight. Hey, turbulence freaks me out, too.
I am literally praying, in that polytheistic-with-a-matron-goddess, pagan way. As in, I actively invoked Danu, my matron deity, last night. I didn't mean to. I just wanted to say, "Keep my beloved safe from harm wherever he is." And wouldn't you know it, the Celtic mother goddess got invoked. Hey, I'm not complaining. It probably had something to do with me whispering, "Please, Danu, keep him safe." *silly grin* Who knows, maybe she was listening. (or maybe I'm craaazy...)
Okay, enough talk of my weird beliefs and rituals. I once told myself I'd never get involved in specific kinds of spirituality, especially anything theistic. I always thought that the constant battle over whose god is better was overblown and annoying and tiring. So I decided I was agnostic and left it at that. I told myself I'd probably never have a specific spiritual belief system.
Oh, well. I told myself I'd never fall in love, either. Look what happened!
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shiefox: I love you. I miss you.
I am literally praying, in that polytheistic-with-a-matron-goddess, pagan way. As in, I actively invoked Danu, my matron deity, last night. I didn't mean to. I just wanted to say, "Keep my beloved safe from harm wherever he is." And wouldn't you know it, the Celtic mother goddess got invoked. Hey, I'm not complaining. It probably had something to do with me whispering, "Please, Danu, keep him safe." *silly grin* Who knows, maybe she was listening. (or maybe I'm craaazy...)
Okay, enough talk of my weird beliefs and rituals. I once told myself I'd never get involved in specific kinds of spirituality, especially anything theistic. I always thought that the constant battle over whose god is better was overblown and annoying and tiring. So I decided I was agnostic and left it at that. I told myself I'd probably never have a specific spiritual belief system.
Oh, well. I told myself I'd never fall in love, either. Look what happened!
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shiefox: I love you. I miss you.