The abyss has been staring back this whole time...

[brightrosefox]

I know that for the sake of sanity, we humans need to create things to believe in so we can make sense out of chaos, and that sometimes our creations come to life in amazing ways due to our fabulous powers of creativity, illusion, philosophy, and reason. But I've always wondered if believing in anything beyond ourselves means quietly giving up parts of our sanity to a chaotic, infinite, maddening universe or multiverse, thus allowing us to be able to stay calm and rational if we ever do see the faces of the multiverse in the forms of cosmic forces, divine minds, supernatural entities, infinite patterns, etcetera.
Or perhaps my mind is just so open to the possibility of everything that I can believe anything without claiming that something specific is an ultimate truth. In the end, there is no ultimate truth, just pieces of chaos floating through the collective unconscious that each person interprets to soothe individual uncertainties regarding life, death, and forces beyond control. After all, we humans really want to either be in control or have something be in control so we feel safe and comfortable. Because the multiverse is uncontrollable, unsafe, uncomfortable, and ultimately unknown.

(Pay no attention to the ramblings of this agnostic eclectic pantheist polytheist pagan witch; she gets like this when on a crazy creative streak.)

(Also, this is interesting and amusing. http://www.pantheism.net/paul/faqs.htm)

Comments

[oneonthefence.livejournal.com]

I guess I look at things like this differently, but you would know why. Everyone has different little parts they create for fun, for coping, for spiritual purposes, etc, but not everyone has PARTS. But I know you know the difference, and what I'm talking about. You can control what I can't, and I envy that, but it's a good thing for you, and no one should dare take that away. <3

[brightrosefox.livejournal.com]

Yep, I understand exactly what you mean. <3

I hope you and your parts are doing... well, what's another word for better? Better doesn't sound right. The good fight? How about that?

[oneonthefence.livejournal.com]

I knew you would understand, just as much as I do. Well, to the best of my ability to ever understand this disease. It's ever-changing. But it just is, and I have to accept that.

We're - us? Okay? Surfacing, but with no distinct memories? It's always interesting. The cutoff between retrograde and dissociative amnesia is at a weird place, and I won't ever be able to remember stuff that happened before I was 14, which is problematic. It will be interesting when the stuff between 14 and 28 all comes back, though, if it ever does. But I fight the good fight, thanks to them. :)

[morlith.livejournal.com]

I believe that Nature and the Universe exist due to balance (based on my own experiences and observations). While there is chaos, meaning things we cannot control (mostly external things to ourselves), there is also balance, meaning things we can control (mostly internal things to ourselves). A large part of our "reality" is affected by those internal things we can control. They dictate how we percieve our world, how we act in our world, and how we interact in our world.

We are imperfect, lack knowledge, and do not have the power or authority to control the Universe. Once these precepts are accepted and set into a framework, we gain more control over our lives because we have an "answer" for how things work.

In the end, there is no ultimate truth, just pieces of chaos floating through the collective unconscious that each person interprets to soothe individual uncertainties regarding life, death, and forces beyond control

Does it matter?

[koemiko.livejournal.com]

The last time I had thoughts like these, a friend linked a quote to me:

"The world is your exercise-book, the pages on which you do your sums. It is not reality, although you can express reality there if you wish. You are also free to write nonsense, or lies, or to tear the pages." --Richard Bach