Dana

[brightrosefox]

http://www.cinema-stars.com/kidman/imageHtms/23.htm
I saw this, and it hit me: This is sort of what Dana might look like. Only fifteen years younger, of course; with larger, hazel eyes, and a more auburn tone to the hair, and fuller lips.
These, too...
http://www.cinema-stars.com/kidman/imageHtms/29.htm (Hello, Phoenix!)
http://www.cinema-stars.com/kidman/imageHtms/28.htm (The body type is almost exact; just a little thinner.)
No wonder I always loved Nicole Kidman...

There have been moments, not necessarily at the computer, when I think I will feel her next to me. Looking over my shoulder, walking with me down a road. I wonder who she is besides a character in not only this novel but a dozen unfinished, scrapped stories since I was fourteen (the year I blossomed). She and Ian.
I always knew him, too. I always knew his face. I saw features of his face in reality the first time I met Adam. The eyes. It was the eyes.
Since I was sixteen, I'd had many dreams of a tall, muscular lover with those midnight ocean blue eyes that could change from storm gray to mist clear at a whim.
Having the same pouty mouth and the same earth-sun warm hair didn't hurt, either.
Yeah, so I fell in love with the physical semi-personification of my fictional creative fantasy. Not bad.

Dana might look like me, if I had mostly Irish genes. We share the Audrey Hepburn jawline, the large, expressive eyes, the full lips, and the pale milk skin. The too-thin frame with nymph-like curves. The Romanian sharp cheekbones. Her fingers and toes are longer and the shape of the nails are narrower. Her hair is bone-straight, like mine was before puberty. Her ears are slightly more tapered than mine, the earlobes smaller. Her chin is slightly smaller.

I don't think I completely created her out of myself. I think she helped create herself. It kind of proves the theory that Beca and I discussed, that our fictional characters might live not just in our heads, but outside our world -- waiting to be written by us. Or, in the case of Ian coming to life in Adam, the characters might also come from our deepest subconscious levels, like a premonition we can't touch until it touches us.

Something to think about.

Comments

[morningstar4.livejournal.com]

That's cool that you should choose Nicole Kidman. A while back when I was looking for pics of Genevieve, I ran across a couple of Nicole that I thought fit her quite well. Her hair is wavy in those, very red, and she has this sort of classic look about her. Maybe I should dig them up sometime and show you... :)

[dragonf1re.livejournal.com]

I think I will feel her next to me. Looking over my shoulder, walking with me down a road.

I do that with my guardian angel and with all of my past pets/familiars. I feel them around me all the time. I miss them so much.

[brightrosefox.livejournal.com]

Yes, that hurts sometimes. My first pet ever was a female Siberian husky, black and white, with piercing sky blue eyes. Her name was Nico (Mom named her for the then-popular pop star). My parents were living in a Brooklyn apartment in the seventies, and some guy left a puppy at their door. When I was born in '79, Nico was already old. She was put down when I was six; stomach cancer and age. She was thirteen. She's the reason for my fierce, powerful, passionate love of wolves. She's the reason that the wolf is one of my totem spirit animals. She looked very much like one. When Dad walked her down the sidewalks at night, people actually crossed the street to avoid passing her. She still walks beside me when I need her.

Tell me about your angel. Is he/she the Judeo-Christian kind, the pagan kind, or a different kind?

[dragonf1re.livejournal.com]

I'm Pagan, but my guardian angel is just a girl with curly red hair and green eyes named "Ajiarre" (pronounced "Ah-she-AR-ah"). :)

[brightrosefox.livejournal.com]

Oh, I know you're pagan. I've actually met some people whose angels were of a different spiritual denomination than they, so I was just checking. That is a lovely name, by the way. Adam's guardian is named Orinel (Hebrew for "Ornament of God"). I actually don't know mine.