Moonstone protection
Jul. 8th, 2005 08:45 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
brightrosefoxI'm reading a lot of books and magazines at once. It makes me feel good. I like having my brain so stimulated.
I need to keep writing.
I keep going back to that scene in Chapter Sixteen. At the end. I shouldn't read it. Very depressing.
Everyone hates being scared of the uncertain.
But some of the scenes I wrote in the book, even years ago... it all makes me think too much. I know what's coming in this book. I know what I will have to write soon. I'm not looking foward to it. Too much darkness and pain and fear and, you know. Stuff that must happen. I feel them pushing, the characters. Write, they say. Do it. Tell the story. Show what happens.
I must tie a psychic cord around my waist, made of pliable moonstone, before I let myself fall into the darkness that must happen in order to help me write this. I already hurt Dana once. I know I must do it again and again and again. She tells me it must happen. I know I must do it.
I hate pain.
I hate suffering.
Don't we all.
It's what writers do, yes?
Moonstone heals the mind.
Amethyst soothe me. Black Tourmeline protect me. Rainbow Moonstone inspire me.
Danu, Brighid, help me see.
Odin guide me.
There.
Now I will write.
I need to keep writing.
I keep going back to that scene in Chapter Sixteen. At the end. I shouldn't read it. Very depressing.
Everyone hates being scared of the uncertain.
But some of the scenes I wrote in the book, even years ago... it all makes me think too much. I know what's coming in this book. I know what I will have to write soon. I'm not looking foward to it. Too much darkness and pain and fear and, you know. Stuff that must happen. I feel them pushing, the characters. Write, they say. Do it. Tell the story. Show what happens.
I must tie a psychic cord around my waist, made of pliable moonstone, before I let myself fall into the darkness that must happen in order to help me write this. I already hurt Dana once. I know I must do it again and again and again. She tells me it must happen. I know I must do it.
I hate pain.
I hate suffering.
Don't we all.
It's what writers do, yes?
Moonstone heals the mind.
Amethyst soothe me. Black Tourmeline protect me. Rainbow Moonstone inspire me.
Danu, Brighid, help me see.
Odin guide me.
There.
Now I will write.
