pain and mind
Jul. 21st, 2005 01:16 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
brightrosefoxLast night I got home around eight, because buses and trains were running late. Adam came home shortly after I got out of the shower an hour later, and I went to sit with him in the living room after getting the dinner he'd made (spaghetti and shrimp). As I walked toward the second reclining chair, my legs and lower back started spasming and cramping. Badly. Sitting down, reclining, I was in tears and whimpering, and then Adam touched my thigh, just pressed his hand, and I let out a yell and then he touched my lower back and I nearly screamed.
I hate when that happens.
I let my guard down around my husband easily. This happens enough times where if I am around others I can hide it and push past the pain. But when I am in my home, with my loved one, why bother? He helped massage and stretch. It's what needs to be done. His mom came home soon after and gave me some extra strength Motrin. I also took a double dose of MSM and Omega-3 Complex.
The pain was gone when I woke up this morning. But the muscles in my legs are still incredibly tight and clenched. I know that xanateria and a few other people with CP who are on my friends list know just what I'm talking about. All the muscle and nerve relaxers in the world won't help some days.
Oh, well. Is life.
Because Adam's insurance company is still "debating" on when and how to add me onto his policy (it's because I have a pre-existing disability and they have to figure out how much I'll cost, what are the pros and cons, etc -- would have been nice of them to tell me this a month ago when they promised they'd put me on there), I am still uninsured and therefore unable to pay for my Strattera, which I have been out of for a week. So in the meantime, I remembered something that was said in one of the natural medicine communities (I think Eric said something too) and have started a supplement cocktail until I get on the damn policy. A few days ago I started taking a full combination of: Gotu Kola, Schizandra, Bacopa, and L-Tyrosine in the mornings; and DMAE, GABA, L-Theanine, and Omega-3 at night. It seems to have regulated me much in the same way that Strattera did, with slightly different overall effects. From what I've learned, the fatty acids combined with tyrosine seem to have some of the greatest effects, while DMAE by itself is one of the best, I still want to continue the Strattera, of course, but these are good supplements to take with it.
The supplements also regulate the way I feel pain, I've noticed. As in, I feel it less intense, less often, am able to handle it better. That is good.
I am just being very careful until I get on the policy, is all.
I hate when that happens.
I let my guard down around my husband easily. This happens enough times where if I am around others I can hide it and push past the pain. But when I am in my home, with my loved one, why bother? He helped massage and stretch. It's what needs to be done. His mom came home soon after and gave me some extra strength Motrin. I also took a double dose of MSM and Omega-3 Complex.
The pain was gone when I woke up this morning. But the muscles in my legs are still incredibly tight and clenched. I know that xanateria and a few other people with CP who are on my friends list know just what I'm talking about. All the muscle and nerve relaxers in the world won't help some days.
Oh, well. Is life.
Because Adam's insurance company is still "debating" on when and how to add me onto his policy (it's because I have a pre-existing disability and they have to figure out how much I'll cost, what are the pros and cons, etc -- would have been nice of them to tell me this a month ago when they promised they'd put me on there), I am still uninsured and therefore unable to pay for my Strattera, which I have been out of for a week. So in the meantime, I remembered something that was said in one of the natural medicine communities (I think Eric said something too) and have started a supplement cocktail until I get on the damn policy. A few days ago I started taking a full combination of: Gotu Kola, Schizandra, Bacopa, and L-Tyrosine in the mornings; and DMAE, GABA, L-Theanine, and Omega-3 at night. It seems to have regulated me much in the same way that Strattera did, with slightly different overall effects. From what I've learned, the fatty acids combined with tyrosine seem to have some of the greatest effects, while DMAE by itself is one of the best, I still want to continue the Strattera, of course, but these are good supplements to take with it.
The supplements also regulate the way I feel pain, I've noticed. As in, I feel it less intense, less often, am able to handle it better. That is good.
I am just being very careful until I get on the policy, is all.
