An update on Libby

[brightrosefox]

Adam just called. They got his mom to ICU. They'll be doing scans, tests, and of course a colonoscopy. As it turns out, she has diverticulitis. I had to look it up on Yahoo Health. Go do that.
So, they may send her home in a day or two, but she'll have to go back and forth.

This will sound horribly, horribly selfish, but I hope she will be able to go to Florida when the time comes. Okay, not quite so selfish, because she bought her condo and she wants to go. But selfish in that... well... I want her away. The universe seems to want to try and tighten the strings between Adam and his mother, not cut them. It's nobody's fault. She can't help this. But it seems that everything that's been happening has been to keep Libby and Bernie here longer. I wish I didn't think like that. It's just the way things are.

As I told my mom earlier, Libby is a force. A presence. When she is not around, there is peace and calm and the world is tranquil. Like last night, when she wasn't home, the townhouse itself literally breathed a sigh of relief. It's as though her very presence, her energy, does something to the flow of things around her. Maybe that is just my perception. Jenn can attest to it, though: During the chaos of wedding preparations, Jenn saw firsthand what the force of Libby was like. So she and I came up with the name Tsunami Libby. Not just Hurricane. Tsunami. Bernie is fine. I love Bernie. He placates and calms the Tsunami. I wish he didn't have to go through any of this.

Earlier today, on the phone, my mom made me laugh: She said we should drop Libby in the middle of Afganistan with the terrorists. She could hunt down Osama. The Libbinator. L Bomb.

I want her to be well. Because I love her. Always. First and formost, I love her. But... I also want her away. She needs to... be away. Healthy! But away.

Does that make sense?
Does even thinking it make me a terrible daughter-in-law, let alone a terrible person?

Comments

[illusionmajik.livejournal.com]

You're not a bad person
You're a good person. But you want your privacy, you want your peace and quiet time with the husband. And being upset that it may not happen when you thought doens't make you bad. It makes you human :)

Ive been there honey.

NEVER EVER THINK YOU'RE A BAD PERSON! YOU'RE A SWEET and wonderful person. *gives you a cookie*

You're allowed to feel what you're feeling
100% and more.

If you need to get away from it all... Spend the 30 bucks and take your hubby out to a red roof inn or a comfort in. Spend the night order room service. Have a night vacation!
You deserve it
huggabies

[brightrosefox.livejournal.com]

I like cookies.
Especially chocolate chip and rainbow.

You know... we may consider the hotel thing.

Thank you, dearest.

[holeslikeeyes.livejournal.com]

You're not a horrible person by any means whatsoever! You and your new husband need time to build this life together. It doesn't make you mean or selfish, it makes you human.

[mistressrenet.livejournal.com]

It's very reasonable. You're very newly wed and Libby's very demanding when she's in good health.

[fyremoon.livejournal.com]

You are a new couple, you want to spend as much time together and free of others as you can. Its not selfish to want a bit of privacy and space to yourself, you want to get established with each other and be able to visit Libby (and anyone else) at your leisure without them being too close or under your feet.

According to the google search, this disease she is suffering from is theorized to be caused by low or lack of fiber in the diet, perhaps from being dependent on fast food or processed foodstuffs. They recommend raising the level of fiber intake. The link is here: http://digestive.niddk.nih.gov/ddiseases/pubs/diverticulosis/

I know you want her to be well, and its hard to feel that you want them out of your life for a while but sometimes you need the time to develop together. I'm sure she knows that she is becoming a burden on you, or if she doesn't, perhaps you need to talk with her.