Afflictions
Aug. 28th, 2003 07:23 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
brightrosefoxIs the sudden rash of self-torment, sleeplessness, self-abuse, prickly words, unsheathed claws, and harsh snarls due to the fact that Mars can now be seen from the early sky? Is it because the 9/11 anniversary looms so close? Does the distant moon pull so hard on my blood?
I feel better now that things have become clearer. But I am still trapped in my dark place and my fists are bruised from pounding on the walls. I want this gone. I want it over and done with. And it will be. I have true faith in that. But I feel impatient and lost, tearing up my own skin as if it might help feed the gods who want my blood.
I have the strength of those who love me. That's always a very good thing.
I feel better now that things have become clearer. But I am still trapped in my dark place and my fists are bruised from pounding on the walls. I want this gone. I want it over and done with. And it will be. I have true faith in that. But I feel impatient and lost, tearing up my own skin as if it might help feed the gods who want my blood.
I have the strength of those who love me. That's always a very good thing.