Afflictions

[brightrosefox]

Is the sudden rash of self-torment, sleeplessness, self-abuse, prickly words, unsheathed claws, and harsh snarls due to the fact that Mars can now be seen from the early sky? Is it because the 9/11 anniversary looms so close? Does the distant moon pull so hard on my blood?
I feel better now that things have become clearer. But I am still trapped in my dark place and my fists are bruised from pounding on the walls. I want this gone. I want it over and done with. And it will be. I have true faith in that. But I feel impatient and lost, tearing up my own skin as if it might help feed the gods who want my blood.
I have the strength of those who love me. That's always a very good thing.

Comments

[ronin-lethe.livejournal.com]

i said it before... we are all of us ripping crashing slouching running tripping flying racing dragging rushing toward some unnameable, unknowable pinnacle. i can only hope that wherever we end up, the ocean will be lovely from there. it remains to be seen.