Heavy breathing and stuff
Aug. 3rd, 2012 08:12 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
brightrosefoxVia the Facebook.
So, yeah. I can't straighten my left arm. It's bent in that classic chicken wing position that happens so often with spastic cerebral palsy, and the wrist and fingers are curled in that claw position that happens so often with spastic cerebral palsy. If I need to do anything involving my left hand, it must be with elbow and wrist bent and fingers curled. Trying to straighten out makes me turn whit
e and make a tiny high-pitched shrieking sound. There's a muscle in my left bicep that won't stopped spasming and it's sending massive pain signals to my brain, and the rest of me is hurting massively, and this is just not fun. I'm going to try Flexeril and Soma soon, because the codeine is just dulling everything. Also, my neck muscles are twitching and I hate that. /whine, yada yada yada, whine
(I apologize for nothing, to quote Hedonismbot.)
I hope I can reach one of the pain specialists soon. I'm hoping to get a prescription for Tramadol to replace the codeine.
I love our Darth Fridge so much. Every time I walk into the kitchen, I see this black monolith of a refrigerator and I'm startled and awed until I remember that, oh yeah, we got a new fridge, after eight years. It's beautiful. I'm not used to a working water filter with a working ice maker on the side freezer door. I'm not used to transparent food drawers. I'm not used to doors that stay fully closed and have alarms. It's just so... awesome. The Force is strong with my fridge. Now I just need a Darth Vader magnet that makes noises... or maybe a lightsaber magnet, making lightsaber noises.
***
For some stupid reason, the skin on my hands and between my fingers are so dry and flaky that the eczema is flaring. Time for healing hydrators and nourishing moisturizers. Moringa and tamanu oils, here I come.
Time to (carefully) play with eyeshadows: Maybelline Color Pearls Marbleized Eyeshadow Duo in Downtown Denim and Persuasive Plum, and Too Faced Exotic Color Intense Eye Shadow in Midnight Mist and Poison Orchid. My eyes do really really well with blue, purple, gray, taupe, gold, and mauve shades. Dark brown shades make my eyes look sunken, red shades make my skin look faded, and green shades make my whole face look sick unless they are extremely dark. I love teal as long as it leans toward the blue side. I don't know how to layer or blend different shades, so I usually tend to just use one shade all over the eyelid, or I will layer a duo with one shade as a liner. I am still struggling to perfect my eyeliner application. I prefer automatic pencils to regular eyeliner pencils or gel liners. I always check ingredients, but it doesn't really matter since my concealer or foundation is always either organic or a blend of natural ingredients along with synthetic, and I use it as primer.
So, yeah. I can't straighten my left arm. It's bent in that classic chicken wing position that happens so often with spastic cerebral palsy, and the wrist and fingers are curled in that claw position that happens so often with spastic cerebral palsy. If I need to do anything involving my left hand, it must be with elbow and wrist bent and fingers curled. Trying to straighten out makes me turn whit
e and make a tiny high-pitched shrieking sound. There's a muscle in my left bicep that won't stopped spasming and it's sending massive pain signals to my brain, and the rest of me is hurting massively, and this is just not fun. I'm going to try Flexeril and Soma soon, because the codeine is just dulling everything. Also, my neck muscles are twitching and I hate that. /whine, yada yada yada, whine
(I apologize for nothing, to quote Hedonismbot.)
I hope I can reach one of the pain specialists soon. I'm hoping to get a prescription for Tramadol to replace the codeine.
I love our Darth Fridge so much. Every time I walk into the kitchen, I see this black monolith of a refrigerator and I'm startled and awed until I remember that, oh yeah, we got a new fridge, after eight years. It's beautiful. I'm not used to a working water filter with a working ice maker on the side freezer door. I'm not used to transparent food drawers. I'm not used to doors that stay fully closed and have alarms. It's just so... awesome. The Force is strong with my fridge. Now I just need a Darth Vader magnet that makes noises... or maybe a lightsaber magnet, making lightsaber noises.
***
For some stupid reason, the skin on my hands and between my fingers are so dry and flaky that the eczema is flaring. Time for healing hydrators and nourishing moisturizers. Moringa and tamanu oils, here I come.
Time to (carefully) play with eyeshadows: Maybelline Color Pearls Marbleized Eyeshadow Duo in Downtown Denim and Persuasive Plum, and Too Faced Exotic Color Intense Eye Shadow in Midnight Mist and Poison Orchid. My eyes do really really well with blue, purple, gray, taupe, gold, and mauve shades. Dark brown shades make my eyes look sunken, red shades make my skin look faded, and green shades make my whole face look sick unless they are extremely dark. I love teal as long as it leans toward the blue side. I don't know how to layer or blend different shades, so I usually tend to just use one shade all over the eyelid, or I will layer a duo with one shade as a liner. I am still struggling to perfect my eyeliner application. I prefer automatic pencils to regular eyeliner pencils or gel liners. I always check ingredients, but it doesn't really matter since my concealer or foundation is always either organic or a blend of natural ingredients along with synthetic, and I use it as primer.
