The gods are crazy
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brightrosefoxBody is very slowly getting better. Adam put a game hen in the deep fryer, I made herb rice, and I ate salad greens. My stomach finally began registering fullness.
Adam wondered if both the fibromyalgia and the fibromyalgia medications are having this effect on the nerves in my stomach; he fully understands now that I tend to vacillate between being unable to eat much and being unable to feel full despite eating plenty. He actually knows more about how the digestive system and nervous system work in tandem than I do, so I'm taking his suggestions to heart. He approved of the Ensure and since he has tomorrow off he suggested cooking tantalizing meals together.
I came for the love, I stayed for the food. When Adam was a teen, he was given a half scholarship to the Culinary Institute of the Arts, but it was still too expensive, so he just cooked amazing foods for family and friends. He's been doing such since his preteen years, when his mother was hospitalized for three months with pleurisy and he was forced to learn to cook to prevent three months of hot dogs with his father. When I first became anorexic, it was Adam's chef powers that saved me from hospitalization and feeding tubes. Oh, the man can cook.
A migraine is beginning to happen, again triggering nausea and sinus pain and muscle spasms inside my body, which is such an insane sensation. I am unhappy. I shall be receiving a skull massage from Adam, who also knows Shiatsu, Reiki, psychic touch... I did mention that randomly, probably. Yes yes, I love and adore and cherish him, etc, he is as a demigod to me.
Time for medical meditation with amber and lepidolite and charoite and kyanite and tourmaline. This is what the bracelets and rings are for. Connecting to Gaia, the cosmic consciousness, and healing deities like Apollo always seems to help, even just a little. I cherish the sensations of chakras opening and aligning, of energies moving, of my quantum psychic consciousness activating.
Adam wondered if both the fibromyalgia and the fibromyalgia medications are having this effect on the nerves in my stomach; he fully understands now that I tend to vacillate between being unable to eat much and being unable to feel full despite eating plenty. He actually knows more about how the digestive system and nervous system work in tandem than I do, so I'm taking his suggestions to heart. He approved of the Ensure and since he has tomorrow off he suggested cooking tantalizing meals together.
I came for the love, I stayed for the food. When Adam was a teen, he was given a half scholarship to the Culinary Institute of the Arts, but it was still too expensive, so he just cooked amazing foods for family and friends. He's been doing such since his preteen years, when his mother was hospitalized for three months with pleurisy and he was forced to learn to cook to prevent three months of hot dogs with his father. When I first became anorexic, it was Adam's chef powers that saved me from hospitalization and feeding tubes. Oh, the man can cook.
A migraine is beginning to happen, again triggering nausea and sinus pain and muscle spasms inside my body, which is such an insane sensation. I am unhappy. I shall be receiving a skull massage from Adam, who also knows Shiatsu, Reiki, psychic touch... I did mention that randomly, probably. Yes yes, I love and adore and cherish him, etc, he is as a demigod to me.
Time for medical meditation with amber and lepidolite and charoite and kyanite and tourmaline. This is what the bracelets and rings are for. Connecting to Gaia, the cosmic consciousness, and healing deities like Apollo always seems to help, even just a little. I cherish the sensations of chakras opening and aligning, of energies moving, of my quantum psychic consciousness activating.
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Date: 2013-04-21 02:34 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2013-04-21 01:25 pm (UTC)I definitely get the vacillation between not being able to eat much, and not feeling sated ever. It's really weird, and I hadn't ever considered that it was tied to the fibro, but considering that various gastro issues are considered a comorbid condition with fibro, it doesn't seem out of bounds. It's incredibly frustrating, especially combined with my insulin resistance and hypoglycemia. I end up needing a lot of help managing food.
Personally, I hated Ensure. It was way, way too sweet. I don't know if you have tried it, but if you have similar issues there, I had better luck with the Atkins versions. (Part of this is that I have had to cut my HFCS intake because of insulin resistance, so a lot of things that use HFCS instead of cane sugar taste way oversweetened to me. You may not have this issue but I figured I would mention an alternative.)
I wish Reiki worked for me. It does not work with my personal energy, but I was attuned before I knew this. I have had to do some major work to close that channel but the scars still ache. So if I have someone do energy work I have to give them the "yo, my psychic body is weird" talk, heh.
My partner is able at least to work with some of the energies that work for me, although it's interesting working on them. I fall sorta into shaman/animist among other things, and partner is a druid, so earth is their element... and earth jangles me, but I can work with earth energy channeled from The Lady Mountain (Rainier) which is an active volcano so is sorta earth-fire. I always ask permission very nicely. Thankfully she likes me. :)
Your mention of stones reminds me that I should dig up mine. I had good luck with some of them, although man made cat's eye is the one I resonate best with, oddly.