Rush the dark back

[brightrosefox]

Note to self: When a major depression episode during a fibromyalgia attack strikes, get a wooden bristle hairbrush or an ionic tourmaline hairbrush and start a long deep scalp massage. Focus on the endorphin rush. So silky. So shiny. So strong. It really does help as much as an endorphin rush can help. If I have to brush my hair until my arms are sore and weak, I will. I love my hair. So much. My beautiful Mediterranean hair. I will grow it as long as possible, maybe to the middle of my back, just above my waist. I take so much pride in my hair.

Well, a couple of weeks ago, an old friend who shared my love of wood hairbrushes told me she was going to send me a gift, but she refused to say what. Now I know what it is. And I am completely in love, ecstatic, and kind of stunned.
https://www.widu.com/product/35235
https://www.widu.com/product/42785

The painted Modern brush with the orange bristles is being kept like a treasure in a silken bag, while the colored blue brush is next to my computer, so I can massage my scalp whenever I want. Oh, so beautiful. So expensive, but understandably so. I massage my palms and my soles with the bristles as well, and it produces some amazing sensations. Perhaps I can include these brushes in my personal therapy.

I will climb out of this knowing how much I am loved.

Comments

[phoenixsansfyr.livejournal.com]

You are loved, and sometimes depression just IS. We can't magically make our brain chemicals any better. Do what makes you feel good and keep on keeping on, but if you don't turn around and suddenly feel masses better because of it, don't worry.

[brightlotusmoon.livejournal.com]

Thank you for this - sometimes I do forget. :)